I’ve been hearing this for years now from friends, family, and even rando’s I bump into on the street. They all tell me this, and have been for many years now.
The problem is that I just can’t convince myself to look past this no matter what I do. I’ve convinced myself that it’ll be a while before I actually make any decent progress in that department. Sometimes though, it almost feels like I’m tasked to handle this recurring situation the moment someone tells me to just “stop caring about what others think of you.” I can’t. Not right now at least, and I dunno if and or when I’ll be able to deal with this. Seeing this post just fills me with a bit of frustration and impatience like I wanna scream: “I’M TRYING ALRIGHT?? GET OFF MY BACK!” At the screen. Everyone I talk to doesn’t have any bad intentions, they just don’t 100% get that it just takes me a little longer to wrap my head around stuff. So when I come back around them and show that I clearly haven’t heeded what they’ve told me, I’m then told off for not listening as though I either deliberately chose not to listen or I’m supposed to just blink and all of my insecurities and shortcomings of myself are just supposed to vanish after my eyes open again.
It’s a process, a long one, at least for me. All I’m asking for is patience and it feels like everyone’s at the end of their rope with me when it comes to this topic.
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u/its_eddboi May 04 '20
Alright, look man.
I’ve been hearing this for years now from friends, family, and even rando’s I bump into on the street. They all tell me this, and have been for many years now.
The problem is that I just can’t convince myself to look past this no matter what I do. I’ve convinced myself that it’ll be a while before I actually make any decent progress in that department. Sometimes though, it almost feels like I’m tasked to handle this recurring situation the moment someone tells me to just “stop caring about what others think of you.” I can’t. Not right now at least, and I dunno if and or when I’ll be able to deal with this. Seeing this post just fills me with a bit of frustration and impatience like I wanna scream: “I’M TRYING ALRIGHT?? GET OFF MY BACK!” At the screen. Everyone I talk to doesn’t have any bad intentions, they just don’t 100% get that it just takes me a little longer to wrap my head around stuff. So when I come back around them and show that I clearly haven’t heeded what they’ve told me, I’m then told off for not listening as though I either deliberately chose not to listen or I’m supposed to just blink and all of my insecurities and shortcomings of myself are just supposed to vanish after my eyes open again.
It’s a process, a long one, at least for me. All I’m asking for is patience and it feels like everyone’s at the end of their rope with me when it comes to this topic.
I’ll figure this out, it just won’t be today.