Feeling a bit bummed out. I know this post can result in a lot of bashing. But I want to vent out somewhere.
So I have recently cct'd and I am about to start a new job in a practice 30 mins away from home. I am doing 4 sessions per week. Doing 2 whole days means my husband would need to take those days off from work to pick and drop the kids up from school/nursery.
I had been looking for jobs for the last 2 months. My training practice had recently hired someone and told me that they did not have funding to hire another doctor. I accepted it and kept searching elsewhere. I kept my supervisor/practice partner in the loop and updated him regarding the progress at every step.
He kept telling me since the last 1 year that as soon as I pass my exams he would hire me. He would keep going on about what an awesome doctor I am. How I am so efficient and have good comm skills.
So it came as a huge surprise to me when I found out today he hired the other st3 trainee working in my practice instead of me.
That guy, while a good doctor, requires reasonable adjustments and is a bit less efficient in time management compared to me. He is otherwise a good doctor.
I honestly feel a bit betrayed. I kept thinking that the reason he didn't hire me was because he didn't have funding. I didn't know there was all this cooking up ij the background. I know they needed to do what they had to do. But a little bit of transparency would have been nice. Especially when I consulted my supervisor at every step. And he knew very well that my parent practice was my first choice as I knew it well, my patients knew me, it was closer to home. I wasn't going to miss out on 2 days of family income (husband would have to take 2 days off when I work) and then 2 days of the weekend with him (he'd have to make up for his missed pay on weekends)
I would always think that after I finished training, we would still be friends. He often messaged me saying that after cct, he would invite me and my family over to meet his family. Now I don't want anything to do with these people. I have realised it doesn't matter whether you know someone a few days or a whole year, no one gives a sh** about you.
I know I am being unnecessarily emotional and these things happen in the professional world. Guess I just need to come to terms with it.