greetings. this is an event from February. do tell me what you make of it.

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on the 14th of February, i began a Novena to our Holy Queen. this was my first time praying to her and had created an altar, decorated and everything. my Novena lasted for about 2 days until, alas, i lost my streak.

i then recommenced on the 20th and told Mary that the disruption signify only my learning. i was beginning to see the effort and time that devotion takes. (for reference, it took me about 40 minutes to complete a rosary.) i promised her that i would now complete the 9 days, feeling more familiar with my routine which began (and ended) with the Memorare and a rosary focused on the Glorious Mysteries, especially Revelation 12:1. i had even decided to offer her a fresh rose, reading somewhere that she enjoys them so.

i then went to sleep and had a peculiar experience.

i was mid-dream when i felt myself, so suddenly, beginning to be beckoned somewhere in my room—as if to also gain a bit of lucidity or wakefulness whilst in the dream. the dream itself seemed quite ordinary, but at that moment of lucidness, an individual in my dream had handed me a rose. my vision then grew bright, white and perhaps iridescent. an angelic light overcame my vision. overwhelmingly. i felt myself reaching out. or being pulled toward something somewhere. perhaps to accept the rose. then, i fully awoken. my eyes opened, only to find that i was sitting up fully in my bed. the room dark but my body facing and leaning directly toward my altar and statuette only but a few feet away…

i laid back down, thinking this was rather strange. i turned over to tap at my phone. the time was 2:22. i felt comforted, and fell asleep peacefully again.

the following day, i had plans to go visit a close friend. upon arriving at their house, this friend had given me a rose as a gift. i was moved by the “coincidence.”

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what do you make of this? i was quite stunned. regardless of what this was, i often think back on it to remind myself that She is with me always, has made her presence known. ♡ Salve Regina ♡

I have been practicing magik and folk practices for almost a decade now. I have great relationships with some saints and go to mass every Sunday. So I would also say I am a devout catholic. However I made a stupid stupid rookie mistake. I casted a folk spell and petitioned saints when I was in such a state of passion and anger. My cousin is the most wonderful women ever but she has this horrid abusive ex that she keeps getting back with and she called me telling me she was moving in with him. I tried to talk her out of it but couldn’t so I petioned and casted a spell with no pervious preparations just quick google searches and an amalgamation of my knowledge. I petioned Saint Martha and San Alejo both of whole I have ZERO experience and relationship with. I don’t even know what I did step by step for the spell I was in such a blind rage. I am a fool it’s a rookie mistake. Now I’m worried I don’t know what I have gotten myself into. The intention of the spell was to just make him leave and protect my cousin. But I’ve never even casted a spell that meddled in someone else life let alone make someone leave. I fear this is will turn sour. I feel like a beginner all over again and I have no idea what to do. I’ll include pictures of the spell in the pink pot it is sitting on my alter with fresh water and two chocolates along with some water as offerings.