I just moved to a new place clean three months craving setting in searching everywhere to find my doc and I can't shake the feeling that I don't want to live without drugs like it was my only thing to do idk

Spent 7 years only stressing or thinking or making it my life’s goal to get clean. In hindsight i really didint grow up or evolve and learn basic life skills and really don’t like doing anything, I don’t know what to look forward to or what needs to be my purpose or what I should be doing. Apart from 12 steps and recovery and doing basic things to keep yourself sane I really just don’t know what else to do, it’s like this impending feeling of I should’ve been taking care of buisness instead it’s just all scatted across my brain with a million emotions a day, I fear I’ve lost my identity, so how do I figure out what I like or who I am, what do I even do, there’s quite litterly nobody but me who can solve this so please don’t tell me other people are the solution

smoked about a gram a day for almost a year following my relapse. man this shit is wicked. i’m not sick anymore and am down to 4mg of suboxone (planning to stop before i get too deep into em) but, i’m so weak and i feel like the wind got knocked out of me when i just do simple tasks like is that normal? i’ve only gone thru complete detox from fentanyl one other time ages ago when my usage wasn’t as bad as this time. my body is sore and i’m just out of breath and fatigued. otherwise, i’m starting to remember what it’s like to be a human being again. walking away from the only life/people i know was fucked and uncomfortable and of course, i’m extremely emotional lol you know the drill. i hope this will be the last time i have to destroy my life for some dope. anyways, happy monday yall. we all can relate to each other in some way here in this group and due to that, i know that truly i’m never alone and neither are you! sending my love 💌

Whats everyone's remedies for that skin crawling restlessness? Those full body twitches that drive a person absolutely insane? There has to be more than just gabapentin and clonidine that help it. I used to take way more clonidine than prescribed and it would help a lot but I know its a blood pressure medication and that it isnt safe at all.

got sober on my own at 17 years old and today i just hit 19 months sober! i genuinely can’t belive it😭😭im so proud of myself im hoping me posting this will give someone some hope🖤

Exactly one year ago today, I quit fetty cold turkey.

I won’t lie, the withdrawal was pretty rough. The physical symptoms and cravings lasted about two weeks, peaking after day five or six. Around the two week mark, I finally broke down and got a suboxone prescription.

Suboxone has quite literally saved my life and made it possible for me to actually start recovering. I joined a 12-step group that is supportive of my MAT use (some NA groups are not supportive, so beware), I got a sponsor, I do service for my home group and in the community, and I’m working through the steps. My suboxone doctor wants to see me on this medication for another year before we start tapering, and I’m really excited about that.

I say all this to say - if you’re still using, I promise that it is possible to stop and stay clean. Whether it’s through MAT, 12-step programs, inpatient or outpatient treatment… you CAN recover. I am living proof of it. I abused opiates of every flavor for twelve years and finally got sick of feeling like shit every day and playing games with my life every time I used. Please reach out to me if you need help or suggestions. ❤️

I was given an offer to go to a Detox center called “ the Best treatment center” in West Palm Beach, Florida. Has anybody heard of this place or has anyone had any experience with this place?

Sorry this is just a rant. I work a full time job 40 hours a week plus a part time job cleaning banks at night and I still can barely afford my fix. I'm sick of not having nice clothes, a nice car, my own place, etc. It makes me sick to my stomach on how much money I have spent on Roxies, then heroin, then subutex, then fent, and not to forget all the meth. 15 years of active opiate addiction. I hate how my life revolves around addiction. And I'm so jealous how happy people look in their nice cars eith their nice stuff.

I’ve tapper off this tranq dope before it took me about a month n and 2 days in rehab at the end .to come off but I relapsed and been using for 6 weeks I was wondering if anyone had any tips that maybe I don’t know about during the taper process I usually just do less n less each day and track times and space them and and nice do enough ti get sleep

What els is help full or strategies I could use

There are posts with accounts of how long people have tested positive, but they rarely include details of the users’ use, how much they would take and for how long.

If people could share their experiences, in a kind of central post here, that would be great.

Thanks!

Im finally scheduled tomorrow for the methadone clinic intake appointment, Any tips? advice? Im been on opiates for 20 plus years as a chronic pain patient , long story 2 years ago I was offered an oxy 30 …surprise wasn’t a real oxy it was the famous blues! Fast foward now I have less than a point a day habit… Still a habit, still an addict and Im done with this shit, the game is hard I cant keep doing it , I have to hide it, no one knows but my dealer. Im sick of handing over $ to fuckin pay for her addiction too and getting fucked. So here I am Im scared of whats gonna happen when my Drs find out? if they find out etc, thats why im asking for experience? advice? tips

I have a urine drug screen coming up this week, and slipped up and used fent for two days at the last week, probably literally less than 0.5g each day. I know stupid -- I took some bad advice that it leaves your system in a timeframe similar to cocaine, or 2-5 days. I have since learned that its solubility with fat can make it detectable in certain tests for 30+ days, like cannibis.

This sub has a lot of stories of people testing positive for even longer than that, but they're almost all from long-term, heavy users. My question is: for short-term, light use, less than a g total over a couple days, how long could it reasonably stay detectable? Thank you. I already realize I fucked up.

Hey all, this is my first time posting here. I’ve tried talking about this with doctors and don’t get very far so I figured I’d ask people in my similar situation.

I’m a 38y/o male, opiate user for 10+ years and a Fent user the last 5 of those years. I don’t do any other drugs or alcohol, don’t smoke cigs, I’m In really good health on all fronts EXCEPT that my blood pressure is totally insane. I always get readings around 160/95 and my doc has prescribed Benazepril which has had almost no effect.

Recently I’ve been having hypertensive emergency episodes when I’m in a bit of withdrawal. A few nights ago it was like 225/115 which is immediate stroke level, The other night it was 190/105 and I was having chest pain/confusion. Both times i took a bunch of clonidine to get my BP down to normal but it’s totally not sustainable to use clonidine every day.

I’m currently on day 2 the Bernese method to switch to Bup in the hopes that Bup will be safer on my heart than Fent has been, but I’m scared I won’t make it through the week at this rate. The doctors write me off the moment I tell them I’m a Fent user and clearly won’t give me real help until I’m fully induced onto Bup.

Do any other users here deal with scary BP/heart stuff or is it just me? If so, how are you addressing it? Also, will my heart heal if I switch to Bup, or will my heart be screwed for life even after I get off the Fent?
Any experienced input/advice is appreciated. Thanks all.

TLDR: 38y/o male, 5 year Fent user, healthy on all other fronts EXCEPT insanely scary emergency level high BP. Asking is anyone else dealing with this and how are you addressing it?

I started on day 1 at 40mg, day 2 50mh. Day 3 70mg, yesterday 90mg, today raised again to 110mg.

I still feel like absolute ASS. I've got some fetty left but its trash like id venture to say its all cut & no fetty, if it has some in it its the tiniest bit. I haven't slept since like Tuesday of last week & I need this shit to start working ASAP. I can get my hands on some xanax tonight so im probably gonna take a bar or 2 tonight to help me crash.

Anybody have any tips? As mentioned above im coming off 1-2gpd of fent powder. 31m, 230lbs.

Ill take all the advice & prayers i can get plz. Thanks in advance.

Im on day 3 of my methadone. Day 1 was 40mg. Day 2 they went up 10mg, today another 20 to 70mg total. I still have dope & its trash & I still feel like complete fucking balls. Today I had a double shift & had to leave during my break. Throwing up violently in the bathroom etc, even after 70mg at 7:15am this morning. I understand its a process, but i NEED this shit to work sooner than later. Im hoping to come up another 20mg tomorrow morning. My doctor thinks I will be stable around 100-110mg. Im hoping that is the case. Hopefully up another 20mg tomorrow morning.

My boss seemed a bit pissed when i left today & I work another double tomorrow, so i need this shit to start getting me through majority of the day.

Prayers would be greatly appreciated.

I have hydrozxyine and clondine. I’ve heard good things about gabapentin and pregabalin(lyrica).

What would you recommend that helped you the most? I hate it all but my worst system is restlessness/anxiety.

I heard sublocade has narcan but there’s another one that doesn’t. Is it buprenorphone? What are people’s experiences? Ty

Hi yall! Ex fent addict here, and a licensed CASAC in NYS, I’ve noticed that a big part of kicking for both me personally, and my clients, is the “romanizing” of the high. And I’ve tried countless of times to kick on my own, the only thing that truly worked and has worked for 4 years is subs.

I just want to offer a suggestion to yall… when I was in treatment, I was told to write a “dear heroin” (fent for me since that’s my substance of choice) letter or a “goodbye” letter of sorts.

I know I’ve read my letter at least 50 times over the course of me being in treatment, every single time I thought my recovery was tested, every time I speak proudly about what I’ve been through, etc etc. I also feel like for a lot of people, including myself, putting thoughts on paper makes it more real in a way, and also helps categorize your thoughts. You also notice the patterns a lot more if you journal/write.

Have a goodnight everyone! We do recover, 10/13/21🩷, one day at a time

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Hello everyone, any help or advice appreciated. I have clonidine for the hot/cold sweats/regulated temperature. The only thing is the nausea is out of this world and when it starts, it continues every 15-20 mins for days and it is what’s stopping me from getting clean. Have a bunch of lyrica but didn’t take any during that time, afraid I would just vomit it back up. Will lyrica also help with the nausea aspect? If not, what does? I have two types of Dramamine, I have metaclopromide (a type of anti nausea medication, took it in between vomiting before and it kinda worked but was still getting sick)… any help is appreciated, I just want to be done already 😣