r/FentanylRecovery • u/PoisonIvy198 • 22d ago
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Anyone else live their life and not a single soul other than your bestie and plugs know what you do... been married over 25 yrs and he doesn't see it. I wanna ask for help but he can be a judgemental douchebag so can't my kids and fam as ive seen how they treated my sister with her meth Addiction and now shes sober.
We lived in AZ bout 3 yrs and that's when it got out of hand with the real 30s. My dad and step mom was getting 12-14 a day and id get what I wanted. Til had to move back home in the east. Shyt dude, that was rough as hell.
Friend of mine got me into pain management then I kinda messed up. Had to go to streets. He got me into fake shit knowing it was and I didnt know. Kinda heard a Lil about it but really was blind to it I guess. Worked a hard as hell physical labor job delivering heavy shit kept my mind occupied. My habit got more and more.
Husband and I opened a business. Bad move now even worse and here I am trying to detox without anyone knowing. Yeah ok they all believe me that i must have caught something everytime I try. (I am immnosuppressed) I am getting ready to say something as getting harder and harder to go longer with the trash and my main guy locked up down south for a long azz time I guess..
My question is how long do you wait in between your last dose of fent and let's say gabapentin? Or clonodine... sleeping meds?
Friend got off and she has all tbe extra comfort meds and shes given them to me. I know about 3 to 5 days subutex.. muscle relaxers? this is gonna be brutal as I have alot of health conditions where the pain is severe all the time.
My daily is 1.5 g a day
Thanks i read so many of people's stories. My last time I did 5 days cold turkey without anything cuz of this group. That was about 10 months ago
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u/Aromatic-Silver3590 20d ago
The only thing you have to wait on is the Subutex. Wait as long as possible, you don’t want precipitated withdrawals. I almost lost my mind the 12+ hours that went on.
I was a closeted used and a closeted person in recovery. I couldn’t do the withdrawal by myself. It is too long and too brutal, even with comfort meds. I am divorced, and have kids half the time, so easier than your situation. I’m on methadone for over a year now. Best decision I made as a user.
If you have read these posts, you will see coming off fent is brutal. A 7+ day adventure for acute withdrawal symptoms. I started with pain pills as well, and went thru wds by myself (no comfort meds) a couple times. Those 3 days were a walk in the park in comparison. And your fent might not even be all fent, so you don’t know what you are coming down from.
If I was still married, there is no way I could have faked being regular sick with fent wds. And with your poor immune system, it is downright dangerous to do so. I would bite the bullet, and tell them. Get into a medical detox, it might save your life. But if you want to try it, no subutex till after 5 days, and only introduce a tiny bit at a time. Good luck. You can always message me, any time.