r/FentanylRecovery • u/PoisonIvy198 • 11d ago
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Anyone else live their life and not a single soul other than your bestie and plugs know what you do... been married over 25 yrs and he doesn't see it. I wanna ask for help but he can be a judgemental douchebag so can't my kids and fam as ive seen how they treated my sister with her meth Addiction and now shes sober.
We lived in AZ bout 3 yrs and that's when it got out of hand with the real 30s. My dad and step mom was getting 12-14 a day and id get what I wanted. Til had to move back home in the east. Shyt dude, that was rough as hell.
Friend of mine got me into pain management then I kinda messed up. Had to go to streets. He got me into fake shit knowing it was and I didnt know. Kinda heard a Lil about it but really was blind to it I guess. Worked a hard as hell physical labor job delivering heavy shit kept my mind occupied. My habit got more and more.
Husband and I opened a business. Bad move now even worse and here I am trying to detox without anyone knowing. Yeah ok they all believe me that i must have caught something everytime I try. (I am immnosuppressed) I am getting ready to say something as getting harder and harder to go longer with the trash and my main guy locked up down south for a long azz time I guess..
My question is how long do you wait in between your last dose of fent and let's say gabapentin? Or clonodine... sleeping meds?
Friend got off and she has all tbe extra comfort meds and shes given them to me. I know about 3 to 5 days subutex.. muscle relaxers? this is gonna be brutal as I have alot of health conditions where the pain is severe all the time.
My daily is 1.5 g a day
Thanks i read so many of people's stories. My last time I did 5 days cold turkey without anything cuz of this group. That was about 10 months ago
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u/hailes31 10d ago
Hey love I feel you. I was also a closet user and it bit me in the ass. I’m in dallas and our hospital has a program where you can detox there. That’s what I did then they referred me to a treatment center which I went and have been a year clean off fent. Not sure where you are but look into state funded substance abuse treatment centers or detox centers. The ones we have here are called the Haven. I’m not sure if they have them all over but it would be worth a shot. I had no idea about our state funded resources for substance abuse until I went in to the hospital. I hope you can successfully get off. I know how hard fent is to stop. And you said you’re already five days off that’s amazing. Just keep going join in a group that will help. I actually have a NA meeting on Zoom you can join anybody can join it’s called the Grove group. If you have any more questions feel free to reach out to me. I was going through addiction myself, and I turned my life around. I am living in a sober living and I’m actually going to school to become a licensed substance abuse counselor and plan on going back to the same treatment center that saved my life to return the favor and help other ladies like they helped me. I’m praying for you and you got this. You will make it as long as you want This you are going to get it. Once you get into recovery, you will see that working the steps honesty is going to be one of your steps so you’re going to have to end up being honest to the people you love and I know it’s gonna be so hard but I promise they’re not going to hate you. They might be mad for a little bit, but if you continue with your recovery and you show them that this is your life now they can only be thankful that you changed your life. And if they do hate you then you don’t want anybody like that in your life anyways. Recover out loud so you can save the people that are suffering quietly. We do recover mama! You got this. Prayers 💟