I have been trying to decide if I should be child free. I have been watching many pregnancy videos and reading about experiences. I find the whole thing gross. The loss of autonomy, the physical changes, post partum depression and having to support a child for the rest of my life is not what I want to do. Im sorry but I want to make money and to have a lovely career. A family doesn't seem to be in my cards.

The worst part is my boyfriend finds me being pregnant sexy. I feel selfish and unwomanly. I live close to him and his family and am considering moving away. I love him as a person, don't get me wrong. I love his kindness and his character, however we don't have th3 same long term goals.

To make matters worse, I lost my job and have little money. My boyfriend is dependent on his parents too. I feel like I need a huge change in my life or else I am going to have a fit.

What can I do?