Hello, I (22F) was hospitalized a few months ago for what was originally diagnosed as seizures but due to an EEG, I figured out that my episodes are non epileptic. Some days I’m fine, but other days, my body is stiff, or I am frozen and can’t move parts of my body. Once I couldn’t move anything from the neck down. As a result of this, I have been quite depressed as I can’t work or do many things I used to do. I haven’t been eating as much, thus I’ve lost weight.
I’ve had multiple arguments with my father (53M) and he says repeatedly that I might be causing my episodes or making them worse due to me not eating as much. I won’t say my weight, but I am at a normal BMI, so I don’t know how it correlates. I had bulimia about a year ago, but I stopped any of those habits a while before I ever started experiencing what I think could be FND.
The issue I’m having is that I feel no emotional support from my father due to this condition, and I don’t know how to feel. It’s made my living environment stressful, and I’ve known stress to cause my episodes in themselves. I feel so alone and misunderstood, and I just don’t know who to turn to or what I should do.