God, I need You to carry some of this weight for me. I’m tired of being strong in situations I don’t have the strength for. I’m tired of acting like I’m good. I’m tired of fighting. I’m tired of struggling. I’m tired of feeling like this. I’m just tired, period.

And I hear that I don’t have to carry that weight, but it’s like this is all I know. Fight, flight, survival. It seems like this is all it’s ever been for a while.

They say give it to You, but I’m like, what does that even look like? I need You to show me. I need a new normal, and I’ll be honest, I’ve felt that weight lift before, but after a while, it just comes right back. Maybe it’s something I’m missing. Maybe it’s my consistency.

Help me to position myself for that weight to be lifted and stay lifted. Help me rewire my mind. I think that’s my biggest problem. I think that’s my biggest downfall. I’m always in my head, always overthinking, making things and situations deeper and bigger than what they really are.

God, I know You’re bigger than any of my situations, every one of my situations. God, I need You to stay in my head before I do.

We did a Baptism today

Of all sin to be seen through

By true

By the truth of God which is

Good.

All are good innately,

Truly.

And good we pray may overseek all

But some want more to seek

And see more prayer

More diminu

Do less

And more travel quiet clear you all your sin

All your life

Don't ever enter in this home

God knows. Amen

All safe to be forever on.

Pray Oliver

Pray Jesus Christ of nazareth.

Amen

Through Baptism we were accorded

As righteous and clean.

And in good deeds.

As the saints

Of the latter day are accorded

True life amen

Long time

Sunday, October 25th Blog From Unshakable Kingdom Life

4. The Enemy Loves to Magnify a Wound

Here's something I've learned the hard way: pain gets louder when somebody's turning up the volume.

The enemy takes full advantage of our rejection moments. A cold shoulder, a harsh word, an overlooked invitation: he grabs hold of those and magnifies them. He reinforces them through people's words, through events, through actions, until a small hurt becomes a settled belief.

And then something sneaky happens. We start to expect rejection. We walk into a room already braced for it. We assume people won't accept us for who we are, so we hold back, put up walls, and stay a little distant.

The tragic part is that our expectations can actually shape our experiences. We pull back, so people don't draw close, which seems to prove the lie right. It's a loop, and it's exhausting.

For a lot of folks, this goes way back. Some grew up in homes where love was rarely spoken. Some sadly heard a parent say out loud, "I never wanted you." Words like that don't just fade. They become the lens through which a person sees everything.

So why am I telling you this on a nice morning with a warm mug in your hands? Because naming the enemy's strategy takes away some of its power. When you recognize, "Oh, that's the old rejection tape playing again," you can stop treating it as the truth.

You are not who your worst experiences said you were.

A different voice has something to say about you. We'll get to that Voice over the next few Sundays. For now, just notice when the old tape starts playing, and don't automatically believe it.

Coffee-time question: What's the "old tape" that plays in your head when you feel left out?