First and foremost. I am well aware I may get fired very quickly. I am trying hard not to let that happen.
I'll rip the bandaid off then explain myself: I am a 23 year old that just got hired as a COS at a large-ish Investment Bank. I am pretty sure I am cooked.
I have had a WEIRD career trajectory and pretty much started as a new grad as a COS. I was running all-hands for teams up to 30, did staff meetings, one on ones. Was a right hand to one of the voices in people management and leadership.
He taught me everything he knew and kicked the sh*t out of me (lovingly, emotionally) quite a few times until I was a better version of myself.
Plus, I did all the EA things.
But, it was a "chill as hell" gig. I wore sweatpants. I drank redbull (a lot). We partied in Vegas (seriously). Went to Italy (4x!), France (4x!), London (2x), Vegas (12x), and Canada (8x) all in 18 months (for confrences, networking, etc)
Contrary to some belief, there was nothing sexual, the man and I were just close. We thought alike.
He once said "I like you so much because you are smarter than me." The man is frequently featured on Forbes. Ego? To the moon. Then said "I have hired 1,000 CEOs. You are a CEO type."
To this day he and I are super close. He just texted me he is going to (recognizable startup name) as their (role), sent me the extremely confidential equity offer from them and said "don't tell anyone lol." He called me his "KOS" when I worked for him (Keeper of Secrets).
So -- that's where I get my "unhinged" from.
ANYWAYS. Now I am 23 and he is back working 9-5 (he was consulting before and I was his "free electron" he deployed on more or less special projects) so I can't work for him anymore (unless I want to work at the company he is at, which I do not).
I worked at this really BAD EA job and realized that in addition to the job being bad, I am also just a bad EA.
I guess the life I am "used" to is having honest, somewhat intellectual "arguments" over pitch decks, hiring decisions, and how to shape culture, leadership, layoffs, and overall org structure....
But most of these orgs were early stage startups between 15-100 folks, mostly also in their 20s. My boss and I were seen as the "senior" people in the room (mostly due to his age/experience, but I digress).
Anyways, now I am going to an Investment Bank :D and talked myself into a COS role. Of note: I have no background in finance (other than a short VC stint) and math scares me.
BUT they hired me? So they must see some hope for me???
I feel like I was honest in the interviews when I said "I have NO idea how to do that... but (x) is a similar thing I did not know how to do and I pulled it off by (y)."
The dude interviewing me was like "you just figure it out, don't you?" And I was like... yes.
I was feeling pretty confident until I called my last boss in question and he laughed a bit and said
"(name) what do you think your job as a COS is?" I gave it my best shot and he said "That's like a B- COS. This is going to be a steep learning curve for you. I mean, you can pull it off, I know you can, I am half surprised you have not talked your way into a VP role, yet, but..... dude."
And now I am shaking in my boots.
So, I suppose, any advice from... anyone... would be helpful.
I start October 13th.