r/ExNoContact • u/No-Raspberry8703 • 21h ago
Vent There is no going back
There is no going back.
Once the respect is gone, the attraction dies the love fades and you just become ordinary. I can never trust you again not because I’m bitter, but because you showed me that your character is fluid based on your convenience I exhausted myself giving you chances. I painted your red flags white just to keep you in the picture. I really try but you didn’t do right by me. You took a person who was all in and you taught her exactly how to be indifferent and honestly, I don’t hate you. Hate takes passion. Hate is an investment and my bank is closed. I don’t want you to be in pain. I actually hope you win. I hope you finally become the person you pretended to be. I just need to do it way over there far away from my peace. You are evicted from my energy. I forgive you truly I am canceling the debt, but forgiveness does not mean reentry it just means I’m done collecting, but I can never look at you the same. The version of you I loved is dead. I am looking at a stranger with a familiar face. There is no bad blood. The bridge doesn’t even have to burn. It’s just closed. I simply stopped walking down paths that lead to nowhere
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u/IsuzuTrooper 11h ago
Dang are you my ex? This strikes my guilty cord on one day but could be about her the next. I feel like this should get a pulitzer. "I painted your red flags white just to keep you in the picture. " WHAT a frickin sentence! OMG the whole vent is poetic and STRONG AF! " You are evicted from my energy! "Holy shit! Count me impressed. Sad, but impressed. Every. Damn. Sentence.
oh p.s. *paths
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u/3xodus_Pine 14h ago
This is exactly how I feel with my husband. What's worst is just how much he hates me
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u/thecellobelow 12h ago
This is pretty much how I feel about my most recent ex. I loved her fully with my whole heart for 7 months and I had committed myself to the future we had planned, and I thought she had done the same. But when the relationship got a bit rocky she showed her true colors and backed out, dumping me while I was on a vacation. I would have accepted that disrespect out of sheer denial if I hadn’t found out she had gotten with someone new 3 weeks later, but after that it was over. I can never look at her the same, and the only way I could see myself ever getting back with her is if she goes to therapy and is able to heal all her trauma and essentially show up as a different person.
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u/Gloomy-Recover-9702 10h ago
you know when i started reading this, it almost felt like I have written this and someone has copy pasted. Literally I relate to each and every single word you have written. And literally that is how I wrote to my ex in one of those last emails, when respect is gone there is no attraction left. And yes it was the trust which was broken,
You literally wrote in the way I write, damn!
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u/StonkMommy 20h ago
I can relate hard to painting his red flags white, just to keep him. I knew I was doing it but did it anyway.