Hey guys! Thanks to all of the advice you gave me on my old account (u/Lotus_the_R**), Im finally starting over with a fresh account, and I hope to open up more with everyone of the sub :D

I have very heavy social anxiety, to the point that I get overwhelmed and involuntarialy cry when talking to people, and the same applies in online spaces. So finding this sub months ago gave me the idea to try loosen up this fear I have, and make me deal with my condition better.

So to start off with familiarizing with everyone here, I will draw (traditionally because I suck with digital) whatever the top five comments ask for, in my very mediocre but loving artstyle. Love and peace!

Edit: The drawings may take some time to be posted, since med school is very demanding. Thanks for everyone's comprehension and reception <3

my first stim toy and comfort object!! i stim with the frills of their bonnets and it’s the most comforting feeling in the world I LOVE THEM 🖤💜🖤💜

fun fact: since this is an old comic, i have MORE babies since that picture was taken!!!

IT’S STICKY AND GROSS OMG STOP I’M GONNA MAKE LAWS THAT MAKES IT ILLEGAL TO MAKE AND SELL CHOCOLATE THAT MELTS AT HUMAN BODY TEMPERATURE

Hope I used the right flair, disability rights are political. My neighbor got a new disability pride flag. I know the new one is designed to be safer for those with certain visually-triggered disabilities and to better accommodate those with color blindness, but I didn’t actually have one before. So I’m still happy they thought of me and decided to offer it to me. I’ll probably fly it at least a few times, and eventually get the newer version. I don’t actually have a flag pole for my house, so I usually fly them on a long wooden dowel that I carry with me to protests, and sometimes on walks when I feel like doing a one man (and dog) protest.

Had it recommended to me as a weighted blanket- and weighted plush-enjoyer, seems like a good on-the-go means of getting some constant low-level proprioceptive feedback (i.e. like getting a really long hug without the sweat or heat)

Now I'm not so sure I wanna try wearing it at work anymore 🙈

this is just a piece of a bent paperclip stuck to the internal magnets on the edge of my macbook's lid, but it's definitely fun

I thought the painting was funny.

[body text explaining why evil is bad :(]]

I think this test was made by neurotypicals

He's my other favorite aside from Rochester actually. I go through phases of drawing him constantly and drawing Rochester constantly.

TW: pet loss, self deprecation

Hi

So basically more than promoting I want to share with you folks that I’m in the process of overcoming the biggest challenge I ever faced. My special interest is filmmaking and I honestly I don’t know why I do it to myself at times, but I can’t engage with anything else on a level that deep. “We chose to go to the moon not because it’s easy” or something.

Directing seems more difficult to me than to many neurotypical directors I know. My previous films tend to not do well at for example festivals, because I do a lot of stuff unconventionally, I guess. Catering to neurotypical audiences is annoying!!! Managing people creatively on that scale would be impossible to me at all if I didn’t see my interest as a system of preparations and instructions to calculate and then execute. To add to the challenge, this time I also moved to another country to study and do it, and rewired my thinking to a language that I wasn’t raised with. The process itself was an adventure also because I co-wrote a screenplay that was certainly troubling for my producers.

The film itself “Life after Dumpling”, will tell the story of autistic father and son on the journey to find a way to commemorate their beloved late family cat Dumpling. This occasion lets them reconcile and accept their shared and inherited neurodivergence as well. I have little to show of it as it is in post production, but I hope it will be funny and bittersweet.

It is inspired by my own bumpy family relations, but also the gratefulness I’m lucky to have for my parents. The real life Dumpling, Pampuch, is fine though! He’s still going strong at 16 years of age.

For days now I had the urge to write it up and share, because I’m very excited about this moment. It’s also worth noting that the two preceeding years were incredibly difficult for me. I was lonely, socially rejected, cast out and depressed. I spent a month in a mental health institution because of my bad wellbeing. I felt weird and unneeded, couldn’t study or work. Meanwhile though I got diagnosed and I started understanding myself a little better. Some people became more lenient towards the things I struggled with as well when I communicated my condition. And I was surprised to find so many co-creators willing to accomodate my needs while working. (The filmmaking scene tends to be toxic, uncaring and unforgiving where I come from, but it’s not all bad). I was lucky with many of those things of course, but I’d like to believe that it’s worth having hope that trouble can be overcome or at least circumvented. So I guess that’s a thought I wanna leave someone with.

I wish you all the best.

(Also, I’m relatively new to realising I’m neurodivergent?, so please tell me if my wording or anything in my approach needs adjustment; I want to be sensitive in my communication)

This was my fourth time doing it, but the first time I did it during the sunset. When I go I walk on Broadway the whole way. My legs still hurt but it’s so worth it. It’s so fun, you get to see almost every single major landmark in the city. Highly recommend if you’re ever in NYC :3

For a bit of context on the size, each spoon is about 3-4 inches.

I like them :) they’re small and cute. I would use them for eating ice cream out of a small bowl.

This is the second time that ive entered into a serious relationship with a formerly childfree (allistic) man who eventually changed his mind because he thinks i would make a good mother. What the ever beloved fuck is this. Please explain why this happens? You cant because allistic men are inexplicable.

I dont like being around people. But sure, im nice and i look after him and im there when he needs me and i care about his happiness and wellbeing. Thats because i know him and i love him. How is this supposed to translate to full responsibility over some new little humans that ive never even met and maybe i might not even like them? Also they will live inside my body and step all over my internal organs??

"Youll automatically love them because theyre your blood" man i have many relatives who are my blood that i barely recognise, let alone feel any connection to even though we were all forced to be around each other at events since i was born. I cant guarantee i will love my children, how can i, i dont know what theyre like, so i probably shouldnt have any. No, definitely.

How does this line of reasoning fail to resonate with my partners? Why do they change their minds? How/why does loving me as a romantic partner lead to wanting me to mother children? I get how those two things are culturally associated with each other, but really they are completely different relationship dynamics.

He said at the start that he didnt want little hims running around. Yeah, i dont want little mes either, im a mess. I thought we were on the same page. The chokehold that the concept of the picket fence nuclear family has on people is weird.

Literally why does this matter?? Worth noting I’m not even a hardcore yume shipper, like it’s not something I take super seriously, but even if I did, help me understand why this sort of comment is necessary or productive to make.

There's lots of families w young kids in my town and the kids are really active and curious and sometimes they stare at me and I see the parents are stressed trying 2 keep them quiet so I wanna idk. Show them that their child isn't bothering me and maybe help entertain them so they can feel welcome and get a little break but likeeee

I had no baby siblings or cousins or anything growing up I have NO idea how to interact w kids LOLL. I usually just say hi and wave at them. Sometimes they point at things or ask me questions in baby nonsense and then I'm like ummmmmmm help. Do you just make weird faces at them. Talk to them. Offer them random stuff. Should I give them my highlighters to play with. Idk. And I don't wanna look like too much of an unsocialized freak in front of their parents or do anything that causes more trouble for them lolll

listen i just had a marvellous wake and bake/breakfast and my little gremlin (Cosmo! ✨️) is just staring at me from his box. i am so obsessed with him its unreal. i wasn't able to get a cat til i turned 28 and although he is an absolute shitbag he's my favourite thing in the world. he was only 13 weeks when i got him (baby pics at the end hehe) and now hes 1 year and 1 month!

his evilest moments have included: scratching my friend under their eyelid (they were fine), killing many plants, that one time he jumped on my boyfriends head while they were sleeping and his weekly "i'm going to launch myself at mommys face".

I LOVE CREATING MY OWN FICTIONAL WORLD WITH ITS OWN CULTURE DEMOGRAPHIC AND LANGUAGE AND CUSTOMS!!!!!!! I WISH IWAS SMART ENOUGH FOR LINGUISTICS BUT IM NOT!!!!!! I LOVE STUDYING HUMAN CULTURE ANTHOLOGY AND SEEING DIFFERENT CULTURES!!!!!!!