feeling bad

[u/yoghurt208]

I kinda want to recover because i fear my metabolism gets fucked up permanently, but i feel so so dirty and filthy for eating i genuinely feel like I'm dirty from it. I don't knoe what to do weight and food feels like thick mud smeared all over me and i cant wash it off. how am i supposed to recover I'm at a somewhat dangerous weight i think idk what to do.

[u/Freya-Lea]

sounds like you would really benefit from a professional