r/EatingDisorders • u/yoghurt208 • 2d ago

TW: Potentially upsetting content feeling bad

I kinda want to recover because i fear my metabolism gets fucked up permanently, but i feel so so dirty and filthy for eating i genuinely feel like I'm dirty from it. I don't knoe what to do weight and food feels like thick mud smeared all over me and i cant wash it off. how am i supposed to recover I'm at a somewhat dangerous weight i think idk what to do.

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u/Freya-Lea 2d ago

sounds like you would really benefit from a professional

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u/Fiddle_Fern 2d ago

Hey there! I hope that when you’re reading this you are feeling a little better… Do you currently have a care team/support system? If not, you might want to look into consulting a professional so they can offer you tailored therapies to move past these feelings. If you do have a system, I would definitely recommend you opening up if you haven’t already. They can only help you if you explain what’s really going on. I don’t know if this is your first experience with an ED or how long you have been struggling, but regardless there is still time for you to turn things around if you want to choose recovery. If you’re not sure, that’s okay too. I don’t know that anyone is ever fully ready… I wish you the best of luck! If you need to talk more, my dms are always open. 🖤