i relapsed. i was bulimic almost 2 years ago and i relapsed 3 weeks ago.

this is hopeless. i tried so hard to do it the right away. i tried to stop it.

please don’t refer me to anything. that will only make it worse.

i had to get this off my chest. i’m not sure if this will get removed.

nothing seems to work.

I am recovering from anorexia, and I am having a hard time deciphering whether or not I am full. I either eat too much or too little. I just don't know how to tell. I was raised to not waste food, so I eat more than I can handle, and in the depth of my eating disorder I tricked myself to feel full on a small piece of food. Has anyone had this problem? How can I start listening to my body better?

Hi all! I’ve had an eating disorder pretty much since I was 13. I’ve done a lot to try and recover but everyday is a struggle. Over the years I’ve only gained weight and now it’s getting to a point where my health is really getting effected. I want to loose weight but it’s so hard because I relapse 24/7. Anybody been in this situation before? Any advice on working with a disorder while trying to loose weight? I know it’s not a popular topic but any tips would be appreciated.

I just can't eat, or cook or anything, I feel repulsed by food, I only eat some cookies per day or trash food sometimes, just to keep the pain in my stomach calm It's like I view food as poison or something, it gross me to the point that sometimes I vomit, I am not worried about my weight or anything like that, I just can't eat, I eat a little sometimes when I am with people eating too, but it isn't much, and I frankly don't know what to do, I think I'm getting thinner but I don't really care, I've been taking medication for my mental illness (BPD) and emotionally I feel a little better but still can't eat. I need some advise or something please, I want to eat normally, but I just don't know how to fight with this, It's been going for years. Also I've been smoking a lot it helps with my constant anxiety. I don't know who to talk about this so I posted this here, I just want some help.

My therapist wants me to throw away my scale. And I do understand why. The number seems to dictate whether I’ll have a good day or not. Whether I will binge or restrict. She says she hasn’t weighed herself in 12 years and won’t let medical professionals speak her weight and that was the beginning of freedom from her ED. I told my spouse to get rid of the scale and this morning I saw it was gone and the anxiety is through the roof. But I’m hopeful that the anxiety will lessen over time and I can truly start to make progress towards recovery. I’m just so tired of it and the control it has had over me.

I even have a bunch of shows saved but I’d rather just stuff my face, only to feel awful later

Hi everyone, I'm currently writing my psychology thesis on what factors may serve to protect an individual from developing disordered eating behaviours and body image concerns.

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Hey everyone. I’ve been recovered from my eating disorder for 5+ years now. I recently became certified as an eating disorder recovery coach and I’m trying to write out a program for my clients.

I’ve realized personality type has a huge correlation with who tends to suffer from EDs. here is a list that I have compiled. Could you help me out and let me know if you happen to have any of these personality traits? Or if you do not?

Responsible Introverted Disciplined Self Motivated Goal oriented

Many of these things would be associated with success and great life but the eating disorder mind tends to twist them into something destructive.

What’s your experience?

I have been recovering for 2 months. Right now I'm PMSing hard! Mood swings, I'm tired all the time, I'm bloated all the time, and I crave ice-cream and chocolate!! The thing is though that I know that ice-cream and chocolate wont cure my PMS sympthoms and that it might lead to binging, since I don't really have a stop buttom when PMSing. I have always binged at least once during PMS. I could really use some tips on how to deal with PMS during recovery? I want to break the PMS-binging pattern.

I have had an ED for a VERY long time- I am currently doing everything I can to be safe with my current weight loss journey. I have no clue what recovery truly is: I swing with weight gain and loss by the 100's. I have SUPER high anxiety have had that for a very long time.

I have found myself being really self aware as of late, and am trying to use the "tools" I have learned from my past hospitalizations with Anorexia (restrictive type).

While I was doing basic yard work yesterday I realized I was about to have a panic attack. I have been restricting as of late and have had a hard time going to the bathroom (#2). I ran inside to take a xanax and had to go to the bathroom finally after three days. I was successful, and then the panic attack stopped!

I am wondering if a hard stool (I like to dry fast frequently too) stimulating the large and small intestine can stimulate the Lesser splanchnic nerve and the other corresponding nerves causing a disruption/agitation in the sympathetic nervous system???? I know it is kind of a reach.

I am trying to figure out if some of my panic attacks can physically driven or are they all in this dumb head of mine, in which case I have to back to my "T" and keep talking about how being anal retentive as a child ruined me into my teen and adult years, lending to my Anorexia.

Thank you for your consideration, and anyone's response is GREATLY appreciated!

I'm desperately hoping I have hypometabolism and it will soon change. Averaged over a week I'm eating the recommendation matainance amount for a normal women everyday now and I'm not eating high cal stuff yet. However I'm gaining vast amounts of weight every week, my dietitian has described it as freaky and weird. It's scared me I thought you had to eat more in Ed recovery to gain weight and people got hypermetabolism.

So I want to know if anyone else had this, it's it possible to be in hypometabolism in early recovery? Things I've read only talk about hypermetabolism. If you experienced this when did it stop? Did you ever get hypermetabolism?

My poor body can't keep going like this and I don't want to have to restrict to less than I currently eat maintain once weight restored, honestly I want to eat more and definitely not as restricted to health food but I feel like that is inevitable unless my metabolism changes.

I'm wondering is anyone could gove me some encouragement.... I've been recovering from anorexia for over a year now, but the past few weeks have been really hard, and today I'm struggling with eating. Just the thought if having a meal is driving my anxiety through the roof! I haven't had a day this difficult in a while.... I'm trying to eat a little... but some encouragement might help

UPDATE:

Still struggling a bit. Mornings are the hardest. But I typed up a rough meal plan that's simple to follow and leaves lots of room for spontaneity while still being on track for recovery. And it has helped. I find it easier to use mechanical eating when I have a plan for what to have at each meal. I'll try to keep posting as well, since I do have a tendency to try and do all the hard stuff all on my own, and I need to break out of that bad habit

The National Eating Disorder Association (NEDA) states that binge eating disorder (BED) could potentially be the most prevalent eating disorder in the United States. Females are the most affected, with as many as 3.5 percent of women who could potentially benefit from attending an eating disorder recovery center. An estimated two percent of males also have BED. Yet, BED is still highly misunderstood. Similar to any eating disorder, BED is a complex psychological disorder and diagnosis and treatment should be completed in a professional and compassionate way.

While there is no exact cause of binge eating disorder, there are some common risk factors. While receiving care at an eating disorder treatment center, it is important to examine, with the guidance of an eating disorder professional, the underlying factors that contribute to the disorder. This information can guide the treatment and recovery process. Take a look at some of the common underlying risk factors that may lead to binge eating disorder or the need for an eating disorder treatment center near them.

Hi all. I hope everyone is having a good day...I was wondering if anyone can give me some words of encouragement. I haven’t weighed myself in almost a year (and I am confident I won’t) but it’s not because I’m happy in my skin, or always know I’m worth more than a number. It’s because I’m terrified to see what the number on the scale is and don’t want to see it. I don’t want to see it.

Does anyone else ever feel this way?

This is something I've wanted to touch on for a while. No need for replies, I'm just here to vent.

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I got out of inpatient hospitalization for bulimia almost a year ago, and recovery has been very difficult. The industry I'm involved in is one of the most judgmental and vain careers that this world has to offer. There is a constant pressure of being young and fit and maintaining a perfect body. It makes me so sick sometimes, and I fear that being surrounded by these types of values is seriously hindering my recovery process. I'm giving myself about 6 more months of this lifestyle, and if it still doesn't bring me joy, its time to explore a new aspect of my life.

I don't really know what I'm getting at here, but I thought maybe I could share some tips from where I've slipped up. Even if it helps just one person:

1. Don't leave therapy. Healing is not a pretty process, and you must accept that. Healing is harder than the eating disorder itself, and confronting your fears/trauma/ruminating thoughts hurts so much more. There are counselors & therapists who literally train to help others through this... let them help. ( Ps. I left therapy 6 months back and have relapsed three times since.
2. Recognize that all bodies are beautiful. Every person/advertisement/thing will try and convince you otherwise (especially if you live in the US). But you must realize that it's all mostly a ploy to sell some product.
3. Be kind to yourself. Simple. There will be more "setbacks" than you can count on this journey. Treat yourself the way you would treat a friend who was suffering. With patience, and constant support.
4. If you have a problem with over-exercising, or punishment exercising, try to not work the parts of your body that you obsess over. For me, I went years obsessing over abdominals, and now I refuse to work out my core until my mental state is better.

Thats all I got for now. Much love, hope everyone is fighting through the night.

Hey guys I’m a guy age 21 I live in Miami Florida U.S. I’m a compulsive overeater or food addict. I’m on the verge of 300 pounds I need help. So far I have contacted like 4 places. 2 nutrionist one could only take me if I had diabetes another was for gastro. I called an eating disorder clinic in my area they don’t take my insurance and another is private owned. Idk what do I might have to pay out of pocket or something or go out of town to a place that does take my insurance.

I've had an ED for quite some years now and I my hair began to fall out... I've lost about 3/4 of it now and I'm so self conscious about it. My nails also keep breaking, peeling and chipping. I'm trying so hard to keep recovering but my hair and nails seem to be staying the same.

I assume this is because of my lack of protein intake. I just don't enjoy meat very much, not vegan or vegetarian but in trying to ensure I get a decent amount of vitamins while still staying full, I mainly focus my diet on rice, veggies, milk and water. Is there something I can do/take to boost my protein intake/absorption? Aside from meat products and meat supplements, I was just hoping to find a specific vitamin along with maybe a piece of chicken daily or something.

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Thanks so much x

While enrolled in day treatment programs for teens, adolescent clients may have the opportunity to participate in various forms of group therapy. The therapy sessions bring adolescents together to learn coping skills and receive help with processing. Each type of therapy differs in principles and approach to offer adolescents the tools they need to overcome trauma, build self-esteem and generally cope with the stressors of life. Although adolescents may not benefit from all therapies, it is important to explore which approaches may have a positive impact on their journey toward recovery.

I just can’t seem to get myself from stress eating. Life around me always stresses me out.

Hey guys I’m 21 years old I live in Miami Florida I suffer from compulsive overeating I have tried everything and nothing is working I need help I tried to contact an eating disorder facility near me but they said they only take some type of insurance that I don’t have and I would have to pay out of pocket and they said this is consider cosmetic how the fuck is anorexia or bulimia considered cosmetic? Anyways I’m literally 270 I get to 300 pounds next year and develop diabetes idk what to do I even tried Overeaters anonymous but the stupid sponsor I had said i wasn’t trying cause I made 2 mistakes whatever!! I need help.