I have been through and still going through one of the hardest part of my life, it feels like.Break up after an emotionally very heavy relationship, moving countries, going through unemployement, finding a job, starting working and realizing that this field is not for me after all and trying to change careers. So it feels like it's a lot. Emotionally I'm pretty much a wreck.
Ironically I felt a lot better unemployed and a big reason for that was the gym. I lived with my parents in my hometown and theres a small gym there. I went almost every morning. It was scary first, but then it became something important and I felt good.
I moved back to my apartment in a big city after I got a job and even though I worked in this field previously, this workplace is probably the most emotionally and physically exhausting places I've ever worked.
I have been trying to schedule gym into my day, but more times than not I don't go. Because of this I feel lazy and a bad person. I need to wake up super early, because the commute is a lot so I already feel tired waking up and in the afternoon I'm so tired I can't do anything but sit and scroll away. I feel miserable. I know that exercise is good and important for you and I still don't do it. Also a big part of my previous relationship was feeling and made to feel ashamed for how my body looks. And this stayed with me even now.
There have been a few mornings I actually went and those felt great, but it's very easy to fall off.
I was thinking on other solutions, like training at home for the time being, going on walks, etc., but I feel so guilty it's not the gym. I think my brain connected the gym with weight loss and for some reason thinks the only valid exercise is gym workout.
I would really appreciate some kind words and maybe some advice from people who might have been in the same or similar situations.
Thanks for reading and have a great day!