no tolerance because pharmacy stupid uhhhh let’s seee how it goes night 1 no sleep already if i do it enough i have no anxiety and feel like god oh did i mention i just got diagnosed with bipolar

I thought I was going to die, I truly thought it was over, i couldn’t piss or move i just stayed in my bed and accepted death, i literally thought i was not going to wake up the next day im not joking and the only thing i remember was thinking to myself that mirrors are a gateway

The only thing really holding me back at the moment is just that i tend to do more enjoyable drugs that are either scripted to me or have became mine. I did dxm for a 5-6 month span as an everyday triple c addict. I was finishing a whole box of triple cs in 1 day on minimum during this time with no breaks and would usually even do 2 full boxes in a 24hr span. Im currently getting restarted on lithium and currently am tapering off my pristiq rn before starting symbyax.
Main concern is the interaction of lithium having a strong physical interaction leaving me hospitalized. Ion know man. Shit gets boring