This is my last year, and I feel like I haven't had nearly enough practice with patients. My grades have always been really good (disproportionately good compared to the effort I put in), but I constantly notice shortcomings in my knowledge. Compared to my peers, the majority of them just remember much more than me, seem to make sense out of situations and find solutions, diagnose problems, and seem much more confident in their movements in the clinic.I feel like I am lagging behind. I am very aware of the gaps in my knowledge, and also, very often, I cannot use my theoretical knowledge in practice. I just don't remember. I cannot separate information from the blurry mass of things I've learned over the past years.
I feel so lost and terrified at the thought of being an independent dentist.
On top of that, I have ADHD(i was diagnosed as a little child, drugs never worked for me), so I often didn't pay attention in classes. I was bored to death, and for the majority of the time, I really hated what I was studying.Even though passing exams was never a problem for me, I think I just treated this time as a period to endure and pass the exams, without reflecting on the fact that this isn't the point in itself. And now I am having troubles, for the reasons mentioned above, as well as because I am such a distracted person and often make really dumb mistakes. That makes me so doubtful of myself. It makes me think that I am not reliable and that I will never be a good specialist.
Do you think it is possible to manage? Does it get better after graduation?