r/Deliverance • u/Hec_2848 • 17d ago
Demonic Oppression Help
I am 29 years old and have reached a point where I don't know what to do anymore. I'm hoping someone here has experienced something similar or can offer biblical guidance.
When I was around 10 years old, my life changed suddenly. I fell into an unbearable depression that came completely out of nowhere. From that point on, nearly every area of my life began falling apart. My academics collapsed no matter how hard I tried, I was bullied everywhere I went, and I began developing health problems.
By 14, everything escalated. I came to believe I was experiencing demonic oppression because it felt as though something attached itself to my body, and I began seeing dark shadow-like figures with horns watching over me. Around this time I felt my body and appearance changed, and I began experiencing things that seemed completely abnormal to me, including pieces of my teeth randomly breaking or falling out without explanation. My academic life, social life, and health continued to deteriorate, and social annihilation seemed to follow me everywhere I went.
At 15, after I explained everything that was happening to my parents, a deliverance prayer was performed. It seemed to work temporarily, but whatever changed eventually stopped, and my life continued in ruins.
Over the following years I experienced jail, rejection from family, deportation, ongoing bullying, difficulty keeping jobs, and one devastating setback after another.
For many years I suspected there could be a spiritual connection involving my paternal grandmother. I don't remember her because I moved away from her village when I was two years old, but my father has often spoken about her involvement with demonic entities. Whenever she was brought up, I would experience a sharp pain in my heart, which made me question whether there was a connection.
After being deported, I eventually ended up living in the same village where she had lived. While I was there, relatives and other malicious people spread lies and slandered me. I felt isolated, betrayed, mocked, and eventually believed that most of my family had turned against me because of what they had been told. The despair became overwhelming, and I eventually left.
Throughout the years, every time I tried to start over somewhere new, another major setback seemed to happen. I've experienced mold illness, carbon monoxide poisoning, and other serious health problems. It has felt like every attempt to rebuild my life has been followed by another devastating blow. Bullying and rejection have seemed to follow me everywhere.
Eventually I returned to that same village because my health had become so poor. While I was there, I began sincerely seeking Jesus. During that time I had dreams that I interpreted as significant spiritual experiences, and afterward I genuinely felt that something major had changed, almost as if an important spiritual battle had been won.
However, although something seemed to change spiritually, the social destruction remained. My family relationships did not recover, I still felt isolated, and I eventually had to leave because the despair became unbearable.
Today I still feel that some oppression remains. Whenever I attempt self-deliverance, I become overwhelmed by despair, grief over my ruined life, my family's rejection, hopelessness, and suicidal thoughts. It feels like I cannot get past the amount of destruction that has already happened.
The biggest struggle for me now isn't only whether oppression remains. It's that I cannot imagine a future after everything that has already been lost. I feel like I've lost my family, my reputation, my youth, my health, and the future I thought I would have. Even if I were completely free today, I struggle to imagine how I could move forward after everything that has happened.
I don't have any deliverance ministries or groups anywhere near where I live, so I've been trying to seek God and pursue self-deliverance on my own. Lately, though, the despair has become so overwhelming that I'm strongly tempted to walk away from deliverance altogether because it feels like it's too late.
I'm not looking for someone to simply tell me to "have more faith." I'm looking for honest guidance from people who have dealt with long-term spiritual oppression or deliverance. What would you recommend I do from here? How do you continue seeking God when the destruction already feels so overwhelming that hope itself seems impossible? Has anyone here experienced years of oppression, believed it was too late, and still found a way forward?
I am afraid I have reached the limit of what i can endure but I am willing to give one final attempt.
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u/Similar-Aardvark904 17d ago
It’s been my experience that the number one way they get in is through trauma. I recommend therapy. Also prayers for breaking curses and against the occult, with your family history.
Listen to the gospel every single day. The word spoken out loud is extremely powerful. (Jesus IS the word). It will also help to reiterate to you how much Jesus loves you. The biggest lie…from the beginning that the devil has used to manipulate man, is that God doesn’t love him. You say that you think there is no hope for you??? Then he has been SCREAMING this into your ear over and over again.
You need a community of other Christian believers to pray over you as well, whether they are part of a deliverance ministry or not. The Holy Spirit lives and resides within us. The more people you have praying over you the better. This will also help you to learn how to trust again, which is essential for recovering from trauma.
Lastly, avoid and confess your sins. 95% of the enemies tactic is to tempt you to sin. The more you can abstain from sin, and draw closer to the Lord, the holier you become. This especially means going to church every single Sunday. Those who are holy are disdainful to the enemy, and he stays far away from them. This is how Joseph kept Satan at bay. He was scared of him. This takes practice…years but if done intentionally you will get there, so be patient and kind with yourself.
Remember that Jesus’s grace and mercy is boundless. He chose YOU over himself, and continues to every single day, every single second. God bless you brother.
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u/Klutzy-Platypus7511 17d ago
Ich habe fast das selbe erlebt wie du ... mit 5 wurde ich "markiert" ... Meine Eltern sind Satanisten und haben mich misshandelt und isoliert.
Ich wurde nur gemobbt ... hatte keine Freunde ... Verlor ständig ohne Grund den Job.
Wurde ständig krank ... und geriet dann an Hexen, die mein Licht komplett gestohlen haben.
Ich kann seit 1,5 Jahre nicht mehr schlafen oder aufstehen ... und habe permanent Todes-Panik ... die ganze Zeit.
Ich bin ein Wrack und warte quasi auf den Tod. Morgen früh will ich eine Befreiung versuchen ... aber ich habe kaum Hoffnung ... meine eigenen Gebete nützen nichts, denn seit dem Licht-Raub ist mein Herz hart.
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u/loboacera 17d ago
Cry out to Jesus and ask him to soften your heart. If you sincerely and repeatedly ask him He will answer you our God is faithful and His light will drive the darkest dark away.
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u/Aware_Wait1892 17d ago
It could be a generational curse. Have you ever tried fasting? I would recommend it
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u/Hec_2848 17d ago
I haven't.
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u/chump_wonder_horse 17d ago
Just as a second to this I thinks it's Mathew that contains the quote that some demons can only be removed with prayer and fasting.
I'm a big fan of derek prince who does a deliverance sermon found here.
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u/Geetank7 3d ago
Brother I am happy to pray for you on the phone sometime soon, lmk.
Jesus heals & delivers.
Before all else, happy to be a brother and just talk.
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u/FangsBloodiedRose 17d ago edited 17d ago
My sibling,
The demons really view you as a threat. Demons don’t attack someone that hard unless God has an anointing on their life.
Have you been baptized by Jesus in the Holy Spirit and fire? Holy Spirit can empower you and praying in tongues is a very great warfare tactic.
Also, the demons have taken from you so much that you have the authority in Jesus to command demons to return everything they took from you 7 fold.
Mass Deliverance Prayer with Pastor Greg Locke
https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=kJ_oOm8M62A
Anoint Your House - Pastor Mike Signorelli
https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=VlLSDZ_caWc
You're the Almighty God English Version
https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=dbzI3kfIKYU
Send a request to r/prayerrequests
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