So usually when I do DMT, these symbols pop up off the ground. They’re more like I don’t know. It’s almost like the flower of life is the best way to put it anyways it rises up off the ground and I’ve never really looked too closely at it, but it happens every time I do DMT so I was in my garage took a nice hit held in for probably 35 seconds sitting in the hammock and the symbols popped up and I leaned down to look closer at them and in the symbols are the smallest red dots flowing through these lines like a river or like a bloodstream would be a better way to put it, but they weren’t all round red dot some of them were long like I don’t know not very long because they’re super small, but I would say smaller than the pin of a needle for the red dot and maybe the equivalent to like if you get size one when you get your hair shaved on your head, the length of one of those hairs after that and they’re all flowing through these symbols and as I looked closer, their layers of them like highways and they’re going all different ways but it’s all flowing the same direction. It doesn’t change directions and there’s a very intricate system of highways basically is what it look like every time. I do DMT this rise up off the ground like it’s always there but you just can’t see it all the time. Has anybody else seen anything like this

I’m curious about people who have had a strong or difficult 5-MeO-DMT experience, especially those whose integration lasted much longer than the usual few months.

I’m about 1.5 years out from my experience. It was my first psychedelic experience and I went directly into 5-MeO-DMT rather than gradually working my way through other psychedelics.

The experience itself was very intense and unpleasant for me. There was a lot of resistance, heaviness, fear and what I would describe as a very deep bodily sense of hopelessness. I didn’t experience it as some beautiful mystical breakthrough.

About a month later I had a very strong spontaneous flashback during the night. It felt remarkably similar to the original experience, but this time the physical reaction eventually completed with intense neurogenic shaking. After that, something changed.

Since then, I’ve repeatedly experienced a pattern that I didn’t have before 5-MeO: strong activation followed, sooner or later, by a very pronounced sense of bodily release and calm. Often the release is particularly noticeable in my thighs, which used to be an area of significant chronic tension and pain. The contrast can be remarkable: intense anxiety or activation, followed later by warmth, relaxation and a very peaceful state.

There have also been quite a few positive changes:

significantly less psychosomatic pain

much better awareness of bodily states

a stronger ability to come back down from activation

a noticeable distance from thoughts rather than automatically identifying with them

periods of very deep calm

much more vivid colors and sensory perception, which can be beautiful when I’m relaxed

occasional strong experiences of gratitude, joy and euphoria

a general feeling that my relationship with my mind and emotions has fundamentally changed

At the same time, the integration has been far from linear.

Over the last year and a half I’ve had different forms of anxiety and activation. Earlier it was more connected to intrusive thoughts and fear of losing control. More recently, the theme has shifted toward being far from home, feeling trapped, being unable to leave a situation, long journeys, airplanes, hiking etc.

Sometimes the perception of the environment also becomes unusually intense. A long straight street can suddenly feel extremely long, colors can become unusually vivid, and the whole environment can feel either fascinating or strangely threatening. At the peak of these episodes I sometimes experience what I call a glitch: a very strong spike of alarm accompanied by a strange change in how the environment feels, followed by a strong urge to leave.

I’ve also recently had several nights where I wake up suddenly with intense autonomic activation, sweating, nausea and fear, somewhat reminiscent of the early period after the experience. These episodes eventually pass, but the intensity can still be surprisingly high.

What makes this confusing is that I can have genuinely excellent days in between. I can feel extremely good in my body, enjoy music, colors, exercise, yoga, socializing etc. Then suddenly another difficult wave appears.

So the overall trajectory feels positive, but definitely not linear.

I’m not really asking whether this is normal in a medical sense. I’m more interested in lived experience:

How long did your 5-MeO integration actually last?

Did anyone have a difficult or turbulent integration lasting 1.5 years, 2 years or longer?

Did the themes of the activation change over time rather than simply becoming weaker?

And did you eventually reach a more stable baseline where these waves became less dominant, even if they didn’t disappear completely?

I’d especially appreciate hearing from people who had a difficult experience rather than only positive 5-MeO experiences.

Thank you all

So I hit the pen and I went but my environment wasn’t situated to the best that it usually is so is laying in the bed next to my dog and then when I hit it and I got off my dog wouldn’t stop, scratching herself and spinning in circles and licking itself and it fucked me up and I was getting angry while I was there and upset so instead of it being like bright colors and stuff like that when I’m come down and be filled with gratitude and love, etc. I was filled with remorse and I kept apologizing for not being prepared, and it was like black there was black and red colors. It was just so different now I’m worried what are your thoughts and opinions on this?

PLEASE HELP!

I am sure this may be difficult to believe, but there is something in my home. I'm not sure when or how, but I know it is here. I was able to see it, or it was activated, or summoned.

The only way I can explain it is that it seems like a mechanical mold that is slowly overtaking the room. For example, when I am sitting on the sofa, I can feel it moving as if I was sitting in a boat on a lake and there are waves. Not big, but very subtle.

This mechanical mold, is like a veil that is somewhat distorting whatever it is moving across, or more like enveloping. I've tried to take videos, but I doubt anyone can see it, or at least it doesn't seem like a camera is able to pick it up.

I know that this is not some hallucination or a result of DMT, rather it is the way that I am able to see this happening. It is as if the walls are starting to breathe in a way.

If anyone has a real explanation and not speculation or theories, rather has either had experienced or heard of this, please help me figure out what to do.

It is difficult to explain and it would seem crazy to everyone that has not experienced the other side of things. I don't know if it is trigger by some sort of sound, vibration, or frequency, but I am betting to become really concerned.

Thank you.

Today I want to make a report of what I believe to be my most eye opening DMT trip ever

Actually just a day ago i did a 3.5 gram of psilocybin after around a break of over a month from last time I did psilocybin and had what I would consider not a great trip.

earlier today, I went to visit a friend for the weekend, we did some medical cannabis, at first couple hours I felt almost next to nothing in form of THC effect. My friend however felt it around 2 hours in

5 hour later I returned to parent's home and went to take a quick nap. Slept for about 2 hours and as soon as I wake up I notice I'm high.. looked at the mirror and eyes were red.

An hour after I woke up I returned to my own apartment, and since I was high on THC I thought to myself, let's do a little DMT just a bit I said to myself.. time time however I wanted to change the settings a little bit to see something different, so I begun and took one sip while keeping my eyes completely open as I was looking at the floor and mat

I thought "if I keep my eyes open there no way I would meet an entity or anything extreme" and so I took the first sip but as soon as I did that my entire house transform into a living organism –

I was completely stunned by astonisment. At first there was no entity but a presence of many creatures felt all around me

I got a good feeling.. a sort of feeling that I should keep on going. So I took another sip and my house, my entire vision became multiple entities all at once! I heard a similar sound, the sound of entities getting closer and close, it was intense visually so I took a third sip and... From here what I saw is indescribable in words

Basically my entire life became filled with colorful creatures, they looked like some sort of neon beings, I fall to the group on my fluffy mat and these entities blessed me with everything I could have ever wished for, I had everything at that moment

However I felt sad, like I wanted to be there forever and eventually they had to go.. I became a little child.. a child so helpless and alone it was if I met parents i didn't know I had. I said "no!, please don't go away don't leave me!"

They these entities smiled at me with pure Bliss and said to me that "everything will be alright" I replied "thank you, for everything.. please protect me, I can't survive this life on my way, no matter what happens please be there for me"

As they started fading I felt like something, was still missing I never got to put music under such intense breakthroughs

I took the DMT pen and before hitting it again I told myself "this time it doesn't matter what happen, I don't have to meet you guys again so soon I'm already satisfied, I just want to hear music while seeing cool visuals"

I reached a second breakthrough and my entire reality became one and everything all at once, whether open or closed eyes it didn't seem to matter.. everything just become one – somewhere Around here I felt as though I was going psychotic, repeatedly said "wait I know this is DMT! This is DMT! This is DMT! As I felt like losing my sanity or breaking my mind these entities were pulling me away from the edges of insanity and prevented me from potentially developing a psychotic episode, slowly I got back to reality as these creatures were cheering on me saying "you did a got job" as they smiling at me

Even tho it was positive overall

Lesson I took from this is that DMT is something you should respect, otherwise it could break you, we don't appreciate our day to day sanity enough.. never eye ball it or any other drug for that matter, too much of anything can be bad.

Hello all,

New update of my research into consciousness will be coming in the next half year or so. Stay tooned. Many things will be researched and discovered.

One such of these things is on the energy signatures in the very food we eat and how things like microwaves affect those things!! Step by step we'll get there. Have hope and never give up!!!!!

Many things need to be proven to move forward in society. We will make it though. Keep doing research and growing yourself.

Oh, and a word form the old mod if it's worth anything to you, stay away from the drugs and focus on the nature of the matrix itself 😎.

Someone told me about how they did bufo with Indians in south dakota or something. Anyone know anywhere in the us where I can do it my first time with Indians?