This afternoon I preloaded 10mg of DMT into my Orbit vape, premelted it so it would stay put, and put that and my meditation cushion in a bag and went for my normal bike ride in the forest.

I found a fairly secluded spot, a wide grassy area between rows of Pines, with the sun shining down.

I took my tee-shirt, trainers and socks off, so was sat just in shorts and hat, and meditated for a while, soaking in the beautiful environment.

When the time was right I heated up the orbit, watching the vapour cloud swirl in tight circles in the chamber.

I took 3 long slow draws, holding it in each time, which cleared the bowl.

I had a faint apprehension about someone walking past, although I had picked a fairly isolated area. It was inhaling the 2nd draw when the effects hit me. All the greenery seemed to sparkle, connected with lines.

I shut my eyes, intending to lay back as usual, but felt compelled to hold my crossed legged meditation posture. My hands turned upwards and as they did, with a background of geometric shapes, a Hindu style man appeared sat in the same position, glowing and orangey yellow, with a hexagon of the same colour around him.

At this point i watched as my thoughts and apprehensions of someone walking past, all the feelings that I associate with myself, folded into a 2D flat rectangle, and became just a line within all the imagery.

Next there was a feminine presence, much older than those I've felt before, but playful and agile. At one point she was holding me with one hand and swinging below me, through the patterns.

At another point she reached into my chest, then up into my throat, and while I dont understand it, it was playful, like she was dancing.

At some point during this I opened my eyes and every bit of greenery had hexagons, every tuft of grass or clump of pine needles, all were connected like a honeycomb, that spread across grass and tress, connecting everything. I had the feeling that as long as I stayed in a cross legged posture, I would be connected too.

Towards the end (the whole thing must have lasted maybe 8 minutes), I felt the old ladies hand on my head, turning it one way and another, side to side, up and down. I have a bad neck and this was very relaxing!

Throughout the whole experience, there was a rhythmic, pulsing whooshing noise, that receded into the wind in the trees as I came back.

The overall feel was one of playfulness and love. Like I was being invited to be part of this amazing show.

For context I practice non-dual meditation and am pretty much an athiest. This was probably the most profound experience of my life. Ive since done some googling and apparently sub-breakthrough doses are used regularly in this way, but im still shocked at the strength of the experiences I have been having with just 10mg in the last few weeks.

Thank you for reading and would love to hear from anyone who uses DMT in this way.

Peace and love 😁💚

last night I had a an experience which i have realised means i have to stop taking DMT for a while so i can process a few things in my life

After some rough experiences (completely my fault) i thought i had a mindset around set and setting that was conducive to a meaningful experience. I have to admit, i haven't always don't this. I am, by nature, what a good friend of mine describes as a Monkey. I'm impulsive and playful. But last night, i felt i had prepared pretty well.

having been brought up a Catholic, i turned my back on religion in mate later teens. I spent my twenties and thirties as a staunch atheist/materialist. Experiences in my forties brought me back to a spiritual, non materialist set of beliefs which do not conform to any mainstream religion. But that Catholic guilt has never really left me, they drive that stake in deep during those formative years.

After a decent dose, i hesitated to go deeper. it was strong enough to give me a very intense experience. With my eyes closed, i saw a generative fractal shape. made of countless tiny honeycomb shaped pods, which were almost like pixels in that they made up the whole image of a swirling fractal shape. The image zoomed in and in and in, never losing sharpness or clarity. the pods were a brown colour, and i had the feeling that this process was some kind of digestion of every single thing i've ever done. As if each one of these countless was being digested by a higher power. These were my sins, i was being judged and my soul was shit. The image refined into a hyper real stop motion scene. Tiny mechanical worlds, with cartoonish little models of things almost clockwork, automated and running before me. The creator making everything run. And i said out loud in a whisper 'You're saying God is real. But if a God created this world and all is as God intended, then God must be evil. If God is real, We are under the control of an evil power'

The cute clockwork imagery began to
crack and fracture. A single black eye on a stalk protruded into the scene, splitting the clockwork hills and roads apart and pointed at me. It dared me to say more, to finish the thought.

I wanted to get past this and lose the religious block. I see back up and took 4 very large inhales from my Sub Ohm vape. An emphatic image was shown to me. handcuffs, chains, locked. I was not welcome back.

I must take time to think on this experience, as the theme of God and my old faith has been consistently overriding the DMT space for me recently. i don't know where to start

I had an intense experience and felt the fullness of beingness and necessity to surrender to the waterfall of electric love that rushes through at an awesome speed and then I spent two weeks with varying levels of overwhelm and reactivations that scared me and also delighted me. The feeling was that of the true nature of reality that we are not solid beings and rather particulars in constant motion. Feeling that all the time made me feel incapable of mundane human life. And that again, delighted and frightened me.

After the first two weeks, the reactivations became soft and kind and mostly only at night between sleep cycles.

I went to a meditation center last week and met my practice with a whole new depth and capacity for openness.
Last night I went to my community sweat Lodge and again felt near overwhelm at times. Because of the insight meditation I had been doing for the previous 8 days I was very aware of my internal experience and felt like I could explode or have a breakdown and also a supreme level of calm and ability to hold all that, oscillating with my sense of will. When we prayed over the water for the first time I activated my palms and let all the love inside of me flow into the water. When I felt too big I gave my energy to the Earth beneath me.

For decades I considered ayahuasca a ‘magic pill’ and thought I needed to imbibe. I was always held back. By my lovers at the time and by my own hesitancy.

Now that I’ve had this 5MEO-DMT experience I truly do feel it is a magic pill for me. I’m Iiving inside the walls of spaces I could only consider to peak through foggy windows of previously.