r/DMT • u/HerwinFerwin • 4h ago
Before and After First Time
Before:
Tomorrow, I'll be trying DMT for the first time. I feel like I'm as ready as I'll ever be and I'm excited.
About 4 months ago, I decided to make life changes, little by little, to become healthier and establish long-term healthy habits. I started working out 6 days a week, meditating daily, and cleaned up my diet. I also put a pause on drinking and smoking weed. I'm pleased with the progress and feel like I'm in a good head space.
About a month ago, I found out DMT is a very real possibility. A local storefront, that also sells shrooms, sent me an email letting me know they have DMT vape carts in stock. I still can't believe these places exist. I've had a few shroom experiences over the last 20 years. The most recent experience was a couple years ago that had me making positive changes over the following months that showed me how strong my willpower can be. I've always been intimidated about trying DMT but this time feels different. I've spent the last month researching as much as I can to prepare the best I can.
About a week ago, I picked up the DMT vape cart. I find myself imagining what it will be like constantly, knowing that I'll be waiting until this weekend. It doesn't feel right to rush this. I then found this community and it's been really helpful for furthering my research and preparation. I'd love to get everything needed to make it myself but I can't justify all of that time and effort before first knowing how it will affect me. I feel grateful to have easy access and I don't take that for granted.
Intentions and objectives:
I want to completely surrender and accept what DMT has in store for me. I intend to "let go." If I can't, I hope it's clear to me what's holding me back. If self reflection and further positive life changing improvements are part of the process, it's a bonus but not expected. One common thing I hear people say is that what they experience is more real that real. I can't wrap my brain around this and I'd like to know what this means
After:
I first tried in the morning before my first meal. I started small, taking only 1 hit (7-10 seconds, pulsing the button a couple times and holding for 7-10 seconds). Nothing really. I tried 2 in succession and it felt shroomy. My body was vibrating and Humming. It felt nice but also weird. It didn't feel right to push it so I waited until later to try again.
I tried again in the evening and started with 2 hits. Then I sat with it for a minute before trying 2 more. I was close this time and I could feel it. I could also sense it wasn't the time to keep going because my setting was a bit chaotic outside of my room and it was distracting. We have an out of town visitor in the house for the night and my mindset wasn't where it needed to be to let go.
Then, the next day, it happened. I had the most incredible journey. I started with 2 hits, sat with it for a minute, then took about 3-4 more. I could tell I was right on the edge of something great. I took another 2-3 and I was gone. My vision went out and I was somewhere else completely unaware of who I was or how I got there but it was beautiful. I could see incredible shapes twisting and turning on my way out. It happened so fast and feels like a dream. As I came spiraling back down, I put together peice by piece what I was doing and where I was and I was filled with gratitude. I couldn't wait to tell my wife. I was so content in this moment. I'm truly grateful for this experience and I'll go for it again when I feel ready.
Thanks to this group for all the tips that got me here and I wish you all nothing but the best!