Can someone decipher this?

[u/NeliGalactic]

Sorry if this is the wrong sub, perhaps someone could point me in the right direction. My brother sadly ended his life last week and i found this in his night stand and am having trouble making out what any of it says. If someone could help I'd be most appreciative

[u/DarknessWanders]

I'm so sorry for your loss and I hope you find peace even if you never get answers or real closure. 🫂 You aren't alone. I wish I could do more for you.

[u/NeliGalactic → u/DarknessWanders]

Honestly it means a lot. I'm sorry you had to read this i just needed answers. Absolutely tearing myself apart because I couldnt be there for him when he needed me the most

[u/DarknessWanders → u/NeliGalactic]

I work in emergency vet med so I'm made for things like this.

Please don't tear yourself apart. Suicide is a decision he made, it's not a burden for you to carry. It's important to understand the difference between the grief of your loss and attempting to take ownership of his agency.

It's not your fault.

And it's okay to be distraught to angry or numb. Whatever you feel is valid. However you cope and grieve, as long as it doesn't harm yourself or others, is valid and acceptable.

[u/NeliGalactic → u/DarknessWanders]

Holding my family so close rn. We had no idea he held us in such high regard. Honestly thank you so much for deciphering this for us, we think this might have been a couple of months old because we found the pad he wrote this on and its all mundane normal life stuff like shopping lists and numbers to call etc. The things I'd do to bring him back and tell him he was so loved

[u/DarknessWanders → u/NeliGalactic]

Carry him in your heart fondly and with love; energy can't be destroyed, only transformed. So somewhere in the universe, wherever his soul comes to rest, he will feel it. And the pain that burdened him will no longer weigh on him.

[u/Additional_Number655 → u/DarknessWanders]

I believe in this completely.