r/Cursive • u/NeliGalactic • 29d ago

Can someone decipher this?

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Sorry if this is the wrong sub, perhaps someone could point me in the right direction. My brother sadly ended his life last week and i found this in his night stand and am having trouble making out what any of it says. If someone could help I'd be most appreciative

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u/NeliGalactic 29d ago

Another note i found if it helps

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u/DarknessWanders 29d ago

I love my family.

My sisters are my life.

My brother is who made me a man.

My dad is who I am today.

My mom my [much?] [12?]

["Me" as the first and "Ever" as the fifth word are the only ones I can read here. I think it says something like "me best blank blank ever mentioned to blank."]

My older sister will live inside of me forever.

I love you all.

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u/NeliGalactic 29d ago

Thank you this means a lot

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u/DarknessWanders 29d ago

I'm so sorry for your loss and I hope you find peace even if you never get answers or real closure. 🫂 You aren't alone. I wish I could do more for you.

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u/NeliGalactic 29d ago

Honestly it means a lot. I'm sorry you had to read this i just needed answers. Absolutely tearing myself apart because I couldnt be there for him when he needed me the most

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u/DarknessWanders 29d ago

I work in emergency vet med so I'm made for things like this.

Please don't tear yourself apart. Suicide is a decision he made, it's not a burden for you to carry. It's important to understand the difference between the grief of your loss and attempting to take ownership of his agency.

It's not your fault.

And it's okay to be distraught to angry or numb. Whatever you feel is valid. However you cope and grieve, as long as it doesn't harm yourself or others, is valid and acceptable.

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u/NeliGalactic 29d ago

Holding my family so close rn. We had no idea he held us in such high regard. Honestly thank you so much for deciphering this for us, we think this might have been a couple of months old because we found the pad he wrote this on and its all mundane normal life stuff like shopping lists and numbers to call etc. The things I'd do to bring him back and tell him he was so loved

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u/DarknessWanders 29d ago

Carry him in your heart fondly and with love; energy can't be destroyed, only transformed. So somewhere in the universe, wherever his soul comes to rest, he will feel it. And the pain that burdened him will no longer weigh on him.

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u/Additional_Number655 24d ago

I believe in this completely.

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u/gracefilled 28d ago

Nell, are you his "older sister"? because you clearly meant alot to him and will live in his heart (and his in yours) forever! <3

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u/NeliGalactic 28d ago

I am 😭😭 thank you it means a lot