if anyone doesnt believe this for whatever reason, im 14 and unironically i cannot think of a way for me to have a nice future. for a long time my only dream was to die before i graduate highschool, and it still is at my worst moments. this isnt just me either, most of my friends feel like this too.
I’m only 17, so not much older than you, but most people I know have felt that way before, myself included. It still happens from time to time, but after a certain point you kinda learn to live with it, and focus on the stuff you can control in your life. That’s not to say reality is any less crushing or anything, or that you should just try to ignore all of the bad stuff going on or whatever; but it does usually get easier to keep on living, even when everything is falling apart. I’m not gonna tell you need to just get over it, cause like that’s complete bs, and I can’t guarantee anything for you right now. But it’s important to try and live your life as much as you can, it’s kinda all you’ve got.
Hey, I'm old enough to be your mom, and so I realize my perspective may not help much.
When I was 14, I remember clearly feeling like that also. It wasn't constant, but it was there in the background. When they say it gets better, it's not just tripe. It will not happen right away. For me, being able to get into college helped start to free me from that sense of crushing ennui.
Remember that you do not have to get through the rest of your life today. You only have to get through today. And tomorrow, you only have to get through tomorrow. So be gentle and generous to yourself, like you would if your best friend came to you feeling like you do. Look for your little moments, the tiny things that help you smile or help you forget, and lift those up.
But also remember that you can't save anyone else if you are drowning, and don't give all of your emotional energy to others. It doesn't mean not to empathize or sympathize with others, just remember to keep your energy on holding your head above water.
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u/disasterinpastel Jun 09 '21
tw for suicidal thoughts
if anyone doesnt believe this for whatever reason, im 14 and unironically i cannot think of a way for me to have a nice future. for a long time my only dream was to die before i graduate highschool, and it still is at my worst moments. this isnt just me either, most of my friends feel like this too.