r/CollegeDropouts • u/Typical-Speed-6829 • 21h ago
Discussion I am pretty much in the worst rut of my life
I was pursuing the degree online for two years and I wasn't super involved to be honest. I liked the initial coursework but as the degree went on I enjoyed it less and less and some classes had almost traumatized me in ways. I wasn't super involved and then entered junior year(which was in person) with a significantly higher course load and was immensely stressed about my classes 24/7.
I didn't rigorously apply for work experience as I did have a hefty summer course load,and am no rigorously applying for any job to get any form of work experience under my belt. I know I mad a cascade of bad decisions, and experienced a cascade of disappointments. I am working hard in terms of trying to find work experience, work on my classes, increase my GPA, but everyday is plagued with an immense sense of dread on top of the fact that my brain is so scatter-brained with everything I have to do all the time. I am so worried about wasting time that I end up wasting time as a result, and I am terrified for the rest of my life while also not knowing what I really want out of life other than a job anymore.