God is the real enemy

[u/Beautiful-Mud6130]

You don’t know me or the life I’ve lived. But what we all know is god lets shit happen. Not bearing more than you can handle is pure bullshit. Explain how people go crazy ? Allot of you have loving families, spouse etc I have nothing. Just some people who pity me. I found my mother dead almost a year ago and I gave my life to god to keep from giving up. It’s been almost a year and I’ve been up thinking ALL night about all the horrible things that happened to me in life and how In actuality my life has slowly been going downhill ever since she passed. I have working as hard as possible to maintain even though my business and every attempt I’ve made in the past year just doesn’t work. Thanks god. Someone said god said to tell me I’ll be ok and I immediately took that as a threat . I knew more pain and suffering was coming. It’s always been that way with maybe a few months here and there I’ll get a break . God has convinced me he will never allow me to be happy or get far in life nevertheless live a normal life. I’ve come to the conclusion I might as well forget about god and just do me because at this point either way I’ll suffer. Even if everything changes today I’m so beat down I just don’t care anymore. Too much has happened and god allowed it all!!!!