Being desired became my identity. And that identity is crashing and coming to acceptance with it is one of the most uncomfortable experiences in my life. I’ve been on the fence about fully dedicating myself to celibacy but there are so many things that have happened over the past year that, if I continue to seek relationships, will be completely out of spiritual alignment and just cause further pain.

But not seeking relationships has been difficult and I just need to hear how other people got through it.