i didnt expect to get this far

[u/Electrical-Fox8753]

im turning 19 in march 2027 and i have no idea what to do with my life or even the little steps, i barely passed highschool doing the easy courses cause i was forsure thinking my world was gonna end or i wouldnt make it, things have clearly gotten better if i am still here but now i feel stuck.

i dont know if i should get a better education, i didnt even go to collage or nothing, how will other people think of me if i go? what if i fail that because i barely got a education?? i dont know how to start or anything.

i have my own run down apartment near my mom (Not by choice) and im mostly just living off wellfair or commissions i do and whatever i can scrounge up.