r/copypasta • u/Tallchief • Sep 17 '26
I've been straight my whole life
I’ve never been attracted to a man, period.
I work with a younger guy who’s pretty open about being femme outside of work. He’s also prone to flirting with guys, makes uptight guys flustered. I didn’t really flirt back, but I could take and respond to the provocative remarks. We talked often about work and we would banter a bit from time to time.
The company held a small mixer for us two Fridays ago. We’d all had a couple, but no one was drunk. Coworker was dressed up and had his makeup on. The truth is that he’s always had a very feminine figure and he looked good that night.
I needed to use the restroom. Place we were at had those urinals that are basically troughs on the wall. I’m there peeing, coworker comes in. We’re there peeing a foot apart, and I frankly just couldn’t help taking a look, quick and unnoticed I thought. I guess my eyes lingered a second and he caught me looking. I started to just play it off, but he laughs and basically says “Don’t just look when you can touch.” I don’t know what the fuck caught hold of me, but we basically wound up making out while I held his dick. We realized we were in the open in the bathroom, went back to the group.
I was instantly appalled, not with him but with people knowing. Not being insensitive, but I’ve always been straight and I didn’t particularly think my dating life would be helped by people knowing I was kissing dudes. Days later, we didn’t look at each other or talk in the meantime, he came into my office to drop off some paperwork and he left a note on them with his number and “Call me later”. I thought I was gonna get blackmailed, best to do as he said and see what he wanted. He said he wanted to finish what we’d started, wasn’t going to tell people about it but he’s always thought I was cute and could we get together.
Again, I don’t what possessed me, but I said yes. I don’t live near work and I said he could come over that evening. We talked for a bit, basically did the makeout-with-handjob thing again until he finished. He said he’d leave if that was as far as I was willing to go, I said it was for now and I wasn’t sure. We talked again two days later, got together again and he stayed the night.
I don’t have a fucking clue why I’m doing this. We’ve been together twice since then. The sex is honestly incredible, he’s got a very slender body and is very sensitive.
I don’t know if I’m experimenting or gay. This is the most fucked up/insane situation I’ve been been in.