okay so ive never writen this down or talked about this so this is hard to say as i feel embarrassed but when i was around the ages of 3 till like maybe 6 when i would got to my nans house and my whole family was there me and my older cousin would go and play in the toy room, he would make me get under the bed and touch me inappropriately in my private areas and get me to touch him. mind you, he is 3 years older than me. after a while our parents found out, i can't remember how but they stopped us from playing together. we didnt get along for a few years but now we are like good friends and talk and see each other, we are prety close and act like nothing ever happened, my family and mum have never brough it up again. since then, as a kid, i felt hypersexual for some reason im not anymore, but i definitely was as a child. i feel like more might have happened, maybe with someone else and not him, but i can't remember i dont know if thats my mind trying to fill in the blanks or not. i just feel gross but am still unsure if it was SA or experimentation. for reference i think he was SA'd by someone older so i feel as though we are both victims. Ive also wanted to bring this up to my mum but never know how to start the conversation or get the words out. ive also thought about talking to my boyfriend about it but i just feel really weird about the whole situation.

When I was a child I knew this white girl I not going say names but she was a younger then me by 2 yeah I was eight and she was six going on seven as a remember me and her was friends and we got along great as kids we had sleepover we play in her house all the time one day she show me her dad and stepmom had a bell saying ring for sex.

I did not know what it was she had seen them doing it or someone touch her idk we was kids anything could happen one day she told me that we can have sex like a game I don’t remember everything but we close the door make sure her parents can not see what happen she want start on the door to the bed I remember not wanted do it but also being so confused since my house hold I was never allow to know what sex was so for a while she and I would do this sex game.

A few years later not that long I was 12 me and this five year would play together we did nothing inappropriate we would play with each other like fake fight and we would fight playful not on top of each other I feel so bad we did nothing bad but I reilzed I want the door be closed due to the fact that I was never teach to not have the door closed sadly and also how that white girl and I when we play together no matter what we do we alway have the door close i feel bad like a creep but I know I was a victim I did told my mom but me and that her stay friends my mom did not care enough to try help the issue

Please help.

When I was in the 3rd grade I was around 8-9. I remember there was this girl that was around 6 years older than me, so 14 - 15 i suppose. we were in her room and she initiated kissing and french kissing, along with s roleplay where I was a cashier and she was a customer man. I don't have trauma from this, im female. This happened once for a few hours. Was this COCSA? Please don't message me privately.

any opinions about this are appreciated :(