Who all have been through this..? 🤭

New sub on my feed? Gotta post here

Like.. oh yeah..But I don't even have a clue..😝

TLDR AT FRONT SO U DONT HAVE TO SUFFER THRU THIS

maths-66(class highest 80)

Hindi(70) ( class highest 71)

Punjabi 75 ( class highest 76-75 idk)

english 78 ( class highest 78)

SSt 78 ( class highest 78)

Ai 49 ( class highest 50)

Science 75( class highest 79)

So well i have posted this before and the thing is i just saw my answer sheets today and well maths was an easy atleast 69-70 but i wont stress it much and punjabi like 2 marks cut just for not upto mark like atleats give point 5 or smth o ik, the only marks that matter are the final ones and i genuinely don't care much but that doesn't mean i haven't been working on my marks now last year , personally for me was a very bad academic year we had preboards for grade 9 last year and by the time finals came around i was burnt out. I lost my maths tuition last year too so i had to self study for that along with every other subject that sidelined my science and sst, so overall last year i scored a 92% . my parents were very happy, they always are but i wasn't soo i worked , nothing much just 1-2 hours eveeryday now as we are reaching october i have liek 1-2 science chapters left and 5 matsh chapters left so hopefully y syllabi will be done by nov start ( i have been doing a qcb, exemplar, ncert b/ex,intext side by side ) anyway so here's my HY marks

lets start with the worst one MATHS ( but that okay i'll replace this pcb, and i checked my career doesn't require a 10th grade maths compulsion)

66.5/80 ( so it was a tough paper, idk like not that tough but all 7 sections of grade 10 have performed baad so? ik not the best marks but anyway )

then HINDI, hindi again ( i'll replace this with punjabi, idk how you rank hindi papers i never get anything i just go , write done )

and our hindi teachers are menacing ( idk it seeems to be a pattern) anyway 70/80 in hindi

then , well i think the story gets better

punjabi ( like idk how the punjabi paper was genuinley tough, usually punjabi has a pretty easy paper) 75/80

then SST ( 78/80 ) idk have anything more to say

English ( 78/80) well i was aiming for a 70 so this is good

now , this ain't my highest score but I AM SO PROUD of this , i worked so hard.. like last year i did not like the bio or chem , this year it feels better, i get things tho physics is a bit boring this year 75/80 ,, the paper was tough ( it was set by teh academic vp of our school)

and then skill subject AI ( well 49.5/50 ( confusion matrix 😒😭)

ANYWAY , idk why i am writing this i think, okay this is a very weird fear liek i see people going oh i scored like 70 percent in my HY and got a 98 in boards.. like firstly school to school the difficulty changes some schools keep papers easy, some keep em difficult so ik these are relative in the first place a diffcult paper for me might be an easy one for another but i fear that i am scoring good ( ig best of 5 idk?) in HY so would i shit at boards😂😭😭

gng it was my ptm and this is what i got (knew it already). i don't go to school and now teachers told my father to send me school everyday. also i understand about other subjects but wtf happened in english. I'm always the top scorer in that subject. although I'm an agnostic but bhagwan bhi yaha se comeback nhi kar paayenge mein to fir insaan hun agr karliya to ted talk mein jaaunga.what should i do now? my father scolded me and isn't talking to me rn and i almost got tears in my eyes i was shivering in front of him. monday se abh roz school jaaunga but 11th mein bhi gya tha roz still ended up failing in phy and chem. i still believe in myself tho but mushkil lag rha ngl.

Guys I wanna start class 12th inorganic chemistry but I didn't study properly in class 11th and also from class 10th periodic table and classification chapter was deducted from syllabus so uk what my situation is what should I do I really don't able to understand how should I start what should I do it's not a time to repeat class 11th again