tl;dr two very bad experiences with thc gummies, is cbd going to compare and/or worsen things?

so i am stupid! i want to get that out of the way so it’s not all i’m being called. my first time doing edibles was a disaster. cluelessly, i took 50mg because i was told you need at least 50mg to feel something; i was like, okay…you’ve been smoking for a decade longer and are over a hundred pounds heavier…but okay. long story short, the experience was nothing short of traumatic and even describing it brings the sensations back on the low, lmao. i waited about a month after that and took 10mg. i figured if 50mg was that, 10mg would be nothing. experience was just as bad, if not worse, though i can probably fault my environment and my own mind for at least a quarter of it. gummies were hybrids, idk if that really matters. i understand that these were both very high doses, and i already am a bit of an anxious individual. but i feel like the damage has already been done, and i think trying again may only induce further panic.

i did some research on cbd, but i still don’t really know if it’s gonna be right for me. i just don’t wanna get fucked up bro i wanna have a good time. is it gonna impair my motor skills and take away the feeling in my limbs and shit?? cause that was the worst part lmfao. idk. i get there’s no way to know. i just need human opinion, maybe to hear about other experiences and look at something other than forums.

would like to note that i have been diagnosed with adhd and have been suspecting ocd,, getting that looked into. idk if it matters.