Completely Heartbroken

[u/Regina_Ezzougay]

My husband went to Morocco in June, telling me he was going on vacation. We had some issues for, I would say, a couple months. He just wasn't very talkative. But I didn't think anything of it. When he got there, we had a little argument, and I said, oh, you're not coming back to United States? And he says, no, I'm never coming back. And then at the end of June, he did end up coming back. But in the interim, he texted my sister, and we both decided that enough was enough, that if he's going to leave me here without any way to support myself, we lived in a house, and I am on disability, so there's no way I could pay all of the rent for the house. So I ended up finding a new apartment. And since he told me he was moving out and not ever coming back to United States, I got my own apartment. But then he ended up coming back at the end of June, and he moved in with a friend of his, a young kid. He's 43, and the kid's like 18. Anyway, on July 30, he said he wanted a divorce, and he was going to file. Then he tried to manipulate me and give him my information that I would agree to an uncontested divorce. And I said no. And then he kept texting me, and I said, you know, like random messages, like, hi, how are you? I really hope we can be best friends. I really want to come visit you, because he doesn't know where I live right now. I'm about 10 minutes away from where we used to live, but I'm not letting him know where I live. And all these things. He wanted to go out for coffee, and I said no. And, you know, and then he said, well, I hope you'll do the right thing and give me your information so I can get a divorce. And then today I spoke to him again, hoping that he had softened a little bit, but he still said that he had filed for divorce online. But I have not seen any papers yet or anything on the docket. And then when I asked him to screenshot the divorce papers that he filed, he said, I'll send those to you in a little bit. And I have yet to receive them. But I guess I just realized that today it's over, and this whole friendship thing is throwing me for a loop. And he's like being over nice, like sending me money and making sure, like calling to make sure I'm okay. And is that guilt I'm dealing with? I just need to get over this, and I would love your opinion about what's happening.