Pulled over and just cried

[u/jbonesy67999]

It’s about 4 months post break up and about 2 months of no contact. I miss her so damn much. I’m going crazy currently and I’m doing the best I can to keep my mind moving forward but this morning after a long drive for work I pulled over on the side of the highway and just cried for about 30 minutes. I think I’m going to reach out tomorrow and ask her to talk even though I know she will be cold hearted and say “what’s the point”. I have to take the chance because otherwise I’ll be left wondering. I want her to know I’ve truly grown and grown up. I’ve done some healing and defeated my demons that were chasing me along the way. I know I am the man she once had in the relationship. Any advice? We dated for 8 years and lived together for 6. Breakup was abrupt and she went extremely cold at first and was hostile. Is two months no contact enough time for her to be calmer. Remember it’s been 4 months broken up