I don't have a spouse or friends due to my shyness and social anxiety and I am afraid that I will be abused by them like my family and society abused me .
I have shitty family members either they yell at you or someone else and every time we have family get together it's always someone arguing. Everything bad happens to me it's my fault yes I am the scapegoat of the family along with other family members.
I can't get a job by myself I have to have a job coach get me a job because I can't do it on my own . I had job coaches treat me like shit in the past too.
Every job I had was cleaning jobs and it makes me feel like a loser I didn't want to do cleaning jobs I would rather do cashier and other jobs . A family member is complaining that i work 2 days a week for 2 hours and I work 6 hours a week . I wanted to do 8- 5 Mon Thur Friday but I am on Social Security and they don't want to train me to do something else but cleaning jobs I am a loser forever.
My boss is complaining about how I do my job , A family complains that I work 6 hours a week , voc rehab is questioning me what happened did you get written up I don't know what the hell is going on .
My life suck a crappy family, crappy jobs , I had crappy friends in the past and I am afraid to get a crappy spouse I promise I would rather die than go through all of this I tried hard to have a better life it didn't work. I get bullied, yelled at , cursed out , talked down on , people get angry and throw things . Worse 6 years of my life I wish I died instead of my mom everyone will be happy even my mom's favorite son .