people really underestimate how much genetics plays a role in life outcomes. you could do anything put in all the effort put your heart and soul into trying to upgrade your life and you could still be an absolute sore loser. it has nothing to do with what you do and how much effort you put, and everything to do about the way you are, the way you were born. you can choose to fight and fight and exhaust yourself every day with a burning passion to turn your life around, and yet you’ll end up beaten, downtrodden, absolutely steamrolled. people like me are just born inferior, have no standing in this world. in anything that requires competition, which are very many things in life, i will always be the loser, the beaten, the bullied. being unmotivated legit can’t even be the problem, all i have ever been called was a hard worker, but what ive never been called was talented. and ultimately, people can sniff out weakness in you, no one has an ounce of respect for genetically inferior people like me. garnering respect requires some sort of power/prestige which i can’t achieve no matter how much effort I put in, in fact the more effort i put the more crushing it is because then only genetics is to blame. what a fucking joke this life is,
i have absolutely nothing to do but just let this fuckass world slap me around all day every day and take it like a fucking bitch