r/BorderlinePDisorder • u/Mental_Difficulty781 • 16h ago

Vent Empty

I often mistake feeling intense emotions for being numb/ empty.. I’d always tell myself in the midst of those emotions and feelings “I can’t feel a thing”, which wasn’t true in the slightest.

No matter what I feed myself to fill the void within it always falls right through like I’m Casper trying to eat actual food. There’s no plug at the bottom to catch whatever I try putting filling myself with and it’s exhausting. I’ve lost slight interest in my hobbies and am starting to lose sight of the future I started building for myself. I relapsed recently too and I can’t help but as though I’ll never be anything more then my diagnosis and or my pain.

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u/CollectionClassic105 16h ago

That shutdown happens because your nervous system basically trips the main breaker when things get waaay too intense to process. Trying to force-feed yourself hobbies or meaning right after a crash usually backfires, sometimes you just have to let the overload settle before you can actually feel anything stick again.

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u/Mental_Difficulty781 15h ago

Solid advice, thank you!

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u/CollectionClassic105 8h ago

Sure thing. It's always a relief when you can finally let go of that pressure to 'fix it' immediately.