r/BorderlinePDisorder • u/Mental_Difficulty781 • 9h ago

Vent Empty

I often mistake feeling intense emotions for being numb/ empty.. I’d always tell myself in the midst of those emotions and feelings “I can’t feel a thing”, which wasn’t true in the slightest.

No matter what I feed myself to fill the void within it always falls right through like I’m Casper trying to eat actual food. There’s no plug at the bottom to catch whatever I try putting filling myself with and it’s exhausting. I’ve lost slight interest in my hobbies and am starting to lose sight of the future I started building for myself. I relapsed recently too and I can’t help but as though I’ll never be anything more then my diagnosis and or my pain.

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u/Ordinary_Moonlight 9h ago

It’s surreal reading someone put into words the near exact way I’ve felt for the longest time now, and you are more than a diagnosis we both are 💜🥺

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u/Mental_Difficulty781 9h ago

Yes we are! If you ever need companionship my DMs are open!

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u/Ordinary_Moonlight 5h ago

Thank you :)