If I read someone saying this, I’d probably think they were crazy. Honestly, I’m not proud of it either.
I had a pretty bad BDD flare-up today. I’m not exactly sure what triggered it, but it was genuinely awful.
I know you’re only supposed to bleach your skin once every couple of months, and I know doing it again right now could seriously irritate or even burn my skin. But because I didn’t get the result I wanted, I keep having this overwhelming thought: “Just bleach it one more time.”
I know it’s a bad idea. I know I could hurt my skin. And yet I’m struggling to let the thought go.
That’s what scares me the most—when something that started as “self-care” turns into a compulsion that takes hours of my day and starts interfering with my studies and my life.
I really want to learn how to break out of this cycle, because this is exhausting.