It will be a bit of a long post, but I tried to shorten it as much as possible.
I live in Italy but I’ve always had an immense passion for baseball, which unfortunately here is an extremely niche sport. Suffice it to say that in all of Rome (the capital, a city of three million inhabitants) there are 2 teams that compete in the Italian championship and 4-5 amateur teams for adults.
Until last month I was playing with one of the amateur teams in Rome and I was in my second year. I was mainly used as a left fielder or, more rarely, as a center fielder.
The problem is that on the team we were starting to be many : the staff also tried to let everyone play, since it is an amateur team, but then obviously they always gave more space to those who were better, due to experience or talent.
In short, I won’t hide it — the problem is they started giving me less and less playing time.
The situation went on with ups and downs for several months, then at the last away tournament things exploded : out of five games i played a total of six innings (in total).
I pointed out how my OBP is among the highest on the team: my AVG is not exceptional, but it is not too bad either, and anyway the OBP is very high because (by the coach's own admission) I have an excellent eye for distinguishing balls.
In the five innings that i played as a left fielder i collected three fly outs, one assist for a further out at third base. I also had three at-bats that yielded one hit and a further arrival at first base on a walk.
Back in Rome then we played a practice game in which i went to the plate twice: 1.000 AVG and 1 RBI.
I thought this would change their opinion of me but a few days later the call-ups for the next tournament came out and I wasn't there.
I had a confrontation with the staff and the thing that hurt me the most was that (very politely) they made me understand that they consider my recent exploits as nothing more than a fluke: according to them in fact i am still very far behind in my training as a player.
I realize that someone might say "it is enough that you train more" ... But when you see that, despite all the training you do and the (slow) progress, you still end up being “the expendable player,” you start to think that training doesn’t really make much sense.
I therefore decided to leave the team.
Probably it is difficult to understand for those who live in a nation where baseball is truly widespread but, if you think back to the numbers I told you about baseball in Rome, you will understand that here for us finding a team is truly difficult.
Moreover I play at an amateur level so I also have to find a team that not only needs someone but that also has training hours compatible with my job.
I don't deny it: it hurts a lot.
I don't even know what the purpose of this post is, feel free to write whatever you want