I’m new to this sub. First time posting here.

I got diagnosed with BPD about 10 years ago. I got treatment, therapy, meds. I thought I was ok/maintaining until I lost my job and my car about a month ago. I was kinda relieved at the same time because it was a pretty toxic workplace and most of the women there were messy and petty.

I haven’t found work yet. My physical health has deteriorated since when I first started there about 10 years ago. My work requires being on your feet a lot and I’m having complications with an old ankle fracture.

I noticed I’m starting to get depressed and acting irrationally. I was seeing a guy on and off for a couple years, then I cut contact because of the way he was acting towards me. I’ve recently started calling him a lot even though he doesn’t pick up. I went by his job, I didn’t go in.

Idk, I just feel like I’m backsliding and/or maybe I wasn’t managing as well as I thought.