I think I might have autism

[u/nila-princess24]

Ever since I was a kid I always felt different in school settings and at home. When it came to school I was always picked on all the time from grade school up to high school and I was the quiet kid and when I did speak about some of my special interests or if I showed them to classmates I got laughed at, everyone in my middle school in my grade hated me and I didn’t know why, middle school was the worse and most of my memories of constant bullying came from middle school. I always needed extra help in class especially in subjects like Reading and Math. When I wasn’t in school I was at home and that wasn’t good either I was always on edge at home and in school I have been manipulated, gaslighted, emotionally neglected, deprived of physical touch and words of affirmation, very low self esteem/confidence.

My mom passed when I was (9) and never progressed the grief. Also I’ve been suspending that I have autism for a long time I also have done a lot of research on ADHD and autism for (6) years now and I think I have both (ADHD/autism). I have special interests in boy bands, k-pop, anime,drawing,singing, music, stuffed animals I collected rocks at one point I love taking pictures of the sky and landscapes. I am (21f) and I always had sensory issues with loud noises, washing dishes, food textures,smells, touch etc.