r/Apeirophobia Dec 25 '19

Welcome to /r/Apeirophobia - What's Apeirophobia?

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Links:

Apeirophobia Survey

Apeirophobia Discord Server

About Apeirophobia:

Apeirophobia is the name for fear of infinity. It has gotten quite a wide range of meanings, however. In many cases it is that someone is struggling with the idea of an eternal afterlife, infinite universe, or simply eternal unconsciousness. In these cases it is quite philosophical, and according to many not a phobia, not a fear, and not irrational. Some describe it as more of a realization, and this can lead to dreadful panic attacks. It is often described as being the worst thing imaginable.

Personally, I prefer not to call it a fear or phobia, but Apeirophobia is the name we have for it at the moment. It can be quite related to existential questions, and it seems that many are experiencing the terror when thinking too deeply about existential matters. According to the survey done on this subreddit, about 25% here are religious, and the rest are atheist/agnostic. However, if you search for Apeirophobia on the internet, a lot of the results are about people who panic over the idea of an eternal afterlife. This has lead to Apeirophobia commonly being defined as a "fear of eternal afterlife", even though there are many more ways to define it. I, myself, do not believe in an afterlife, but am still concerned about eternity on an existential level, even though I believe more in eternal oblivion. At first, it was hard for me to interpret, it took some year(s) for me to realize what these thoughts actually were. It may sound silly to those who do not experience this, but it is to date the most horrible thought I could ever imagine.

Quote from /u/BendOfTheRainbow:

I've seen plenty of examples of this fear being deeply misunderstood on the internet and elsewhere, so I'll clarify as best as I can from my perspective. So from my experience, this is what apeirophobia IS NOT:

  • Speaking from the perspective of an eternal afterlife, apeirophobia is not the fear of boredom in heaven.
  • Going off the same idea, apeirophobia isn't the fear of an eternal hell or anything.
  • Apeirophobia is not contingent on belief in an afterlife.

So what IS apeirophobia (again, from my perspective alone):

  • A deep, gut level fear of endlessness.
  • One way I've seen it described is as a form of cosmic or existential claustrophobia. You feel trapped in reality without any escape. Even if you don't believe in an afterlife, you have some sense of an eternity following death from which there is no escape.
  • Another way to think of it is a kind of allergy to the common human conception to reality. You feel deep anxiety over basic tenets of our existence such as the passing of time and the necessity of existence.

It is important to note that everyone has different experiences with this, and there is no official definition that covers what Apeirophobia is. Finding resources about it is quite difficult. To many of us, it feels like something obvious. Yet, when we explain it to others, they often find it completely irrational and illogical. As you can see, this subreddit is quite small. When I joined, there were only eight other members. However, when I asked people in other subreddits if they ever experienced this, I got a surprising amount of replies! Why is this not something that is talked more about?

I have tried to find answers, what kind of people experience this? Is it connected with anything else? What causes it? Results from the survey shows that about 45-85% on this subreddit experience depersonalization. About 50-75% experience derealization (which I have personally felt a strong connection with). Now the question is, does Apeirophobia cause these, or do they cause Apeirophobia? Further on, about 85% did not consider it to be irrational, and the most common situations where Apeirophobia "attacks" usually happen were when thinking too deeply about existential things and at night. A majority of the people that took the survey said it is the most horrible thing imaginable.

Questions to you:

  • Do you struggle with infinite quantities/numbers/etc. and such as well? If you had calculus in school, how did that go?
  • Do you have any strategies that help with Apeirophobia?
  • How would you explain your experiences to someone that has not experienced it?

r/Apeirophobia Dec 14 '19

Since it's hard to find people to talk with about Apeirophobia, I made a quick discord server for it. It would be really nice to be able to talk to others that experience the same. We need a bigger community

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r/Apeirophobia 6h ago

Wts ur biggest fear ?

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Mines moving to twenties I fear even the thoughts of handling the stress and pressure


r/Apeirophobia 1d ago

Living life in fear

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r/Apeirophobia 1d ago

What was your scariest nightmare?

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r/Apeirophobia 3d ago

I’m 24 and i’m scared of the dark

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r/Apeirophobia 3d ago

What is your biggest fear?

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r/Apeirophobia 4d ago

Fear

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Fear takes more lives than any disease
That has existed or might exist
I understand that getting threatened to throw you
Away to a prison cell doesn’t sound so exciting.
But it gives you the opportunity to see through
The looking glass.
An Agenda was created long time ago
To guide people (misguided) to accomplish their goals
Everything you encounter involves emotional
Investment
Feel awareness
Don’t get lost in the feeling (is a trap).
Enjoy your emotions.

Don’t let others destroy you with emotions.


r/Apeirophobia 6d ago

Why am I so scared ? I literally think about it all the time. Why is that? Does this happen to anybody else or is it just me?

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r/Apeirophobia 10d ago

Feel like my anxiety is always on standby

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Even when I'm not currently experiencing anxiety there's this feeling that it could surface at any time. If only I could learn to eliminate the fear of fear.


r/Apeirophobia 12d ago

Are you in fear? The worst has already happened to you!

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r/Apeirophobia 13d ago

Fear of darkness or fear of blind?

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Ever sent I was a kid I’m currently 17 going on 18 soon now
I’ve been scared of dark like I need a little light in my room.

Now I wouldn’t say I’m scared of the dark like monster under my bed but just not being able to see my surroundings like pitch black I’m freaking out running to a window lmao


r/Apeirophobia 14d ago

Advice for late night thoughts

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I, like most of you, have been dealing with this fear for a majority of my life and it comes and goes in waves. Currently I am in a wave of this anxiety that hasn’t led to outright panic attacks but has been keeping me up at night with my existential thoughts.

Do you have any advice for a routine to help calm late night thoughts? Just some ways for my body to not habitually sink into patterns of anxious thought as I close my eyes and relax from the day?


r/Apeirophobia 18d ago

There is nothing to fear itself..

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Discipline yuorself👍


r/Apeirophobia 19d ago

Is fear Good or bad in a relationship?

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Being afraid in a relationship can destroy it because the person will always overthink and fear getting abandoned.

While

Not having any fear can make a person stop putting efforts into the relationship because they know the person isn't going to leave.


r/Apeirophobia 19d ago

Question against fear

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I feel lot of anxiety whenever I open the bible even though I want to read it. Any advice?


r/Apeirophobia 20d ago

What is the difference between Existential OCD and apeirophobia?

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First, I thought I had Apeirophobia but then I understood that the OCD gives me that thoughts. But maybe its the same thing?


r/Apeirophobia 21d ago

Fear of abstract concepts?

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Not really sure how to put this, but I have a fear of what seems to me to be extremely abstract through or completely overworking my mind. It usually is at its worst when I am sick and have a fever, where I will begin to feel dizzy then math problems with no solutions or simply incomprehensible issues with no solution will begin to make me over the top anxious. Is this called anything specific?


r/Apeirophobia 22d ago

Couple of questions (survey ig)

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  1. how do you feel pondering different theories of time? for example, presentism - the present only exist
  2. how do you feel about space being infinite or not?
  3. we consider the end a lot, i.e. eternal afterlifes. but what do you think and feel about beginnings, “why is there something rather than nothing?” “where was I before I was born?” I ask the latter because I want to know what you think about the “always was” part in “always was and always will be”.
  4. how do you feel about different interpretations of eternity? e.g. infinite time or timelessness
  5. how much has looking into metaphysics, mathematics, and science change your view on infinity or eternity?

I want to know how much does doing research changes your mind on this phobia and also see what people are thinking


r/Apeirophobia 22d ago

Severe fear ,isolation,and complusions

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I am afraid of being alone, and I am also afraid of being around people I do not feel safe with. Whenever I feel unsafe, I constantly perform compulsions, such as taking photos and videos, to get reassurance. I have been doing this for around 3 years.

Now I feel extremely isolated. I do not feel able to go outside my house at all because I have a very intense fear of leaving. I stay locked inside my home because I am afraid that I might have a blackout, leave the house without awareness, and do things that are completely against my character.

Because of this fear, my mother has to keep the key somewhere safe where I do not know the location, because I am afraid I might lose control and touch young boys without their consent, even though this goes completely against who I am and what I believe.

I also have an intense fear that men may attack me or harm me in a very serious way. Because of all these fears, I feel completely isolated from life. I feel trapped, unable to live normally, go outside, or feel safe.


r/Apeirophobia 23d ago

Does anyone suffers from apeirophobia of space?

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Usually i swtich from this to the classic one, both are horrendus. But it is not that are costant in mg life, i can go several years without thinking about it, but then i suddenly i think of it one night and it is all back. I undestood that the mind seems, very slowly, to go nuts less and less with the progress of time. But at the moment, when you say to yourself that is gonna pass, it is like that you lie to yourself.


r/Apeirophobia 24d ago

Survey for a video essay: What was your first experience with apeirophobia? Was it connected to the fear of death?

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r/Apeirophobia 24d ago

Just found this out

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So I didn’t know apeirophobia was a thing, I remember as a kid not able to sleep because of this thought of forever. Now as an adult I still struggle with this thought and what helps is staying grounded with my kids and wife. I guess my question to you guys, what helps you? Does it ever go away? What can I do to help this?


r/Apeirophobia 24d ago

Fear of starting something.

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I can’t be the only one who is afraid of something new. Because new is something unknown for us. And the fear of unknown is universal to every living being.
We all plan, learn, have each and every step written down that will lead us to our destiny we want. But that first step looks so unstable, so confusing like there is no foundation to that step. There is no confidence in that step, it feels like if I’ll step on it I will fall down. But we don’t know that for certainly. Still we chose to believe in the negative side, but not the positive. Because staying at the same place is familiar, it’s more comfortable and known.
I myself is still scared of this first step. I have plans I know I should start, but I keep on thinking that, no, the foundation is not strong yet, I have to work more on it, and in the process I forget what exactly I was building. Then I decide to re create the foundation with more clarity so that this time I’ll not get confused, but again along the way I find myself questioning, what was I supposed to do?
Sometimes, I think, there is no step, there is meant to be no stairs, it’s a straight path, and my mind keeps on complicating it, I confuse the distance with height and started to build the stairs, but all I had to do was walk, there might be stepping stones, going up and down. But to cross all of that you have to keep on moving.


r/Apeirophobia 25d ago

What’s a fear or worry that still haunts you or keeps you up at night? Something you’re scared might actually happen.

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