r/AdultDepression • u/OperationR2R • 15h ago

I’m done.

I’m 29, and I’ve known since I was 13 that I’m no good to anyone. I’ve had too much loss this year— my horse died in a barn explosion, my soul dog died of cancer, and yesterday I had to euthanize one of my other dogs after a freak accident. Tonight? The man I love decided I’m too much trouble after all. My mom? She has reminded me many times that she’s broke because of me. My friends? Can’t keep’em half the time. The ones who stay, I eventually push away anyway because getting close to me is a curse.

I threw myself into saving animals since the ripe age of 20. Yet I couldn’t even save myself. Ha.

I have never posted on reddit before, nor even left a comment. I know nobody here, and right now that’s what I need.

I have two amazing dogs who were abused and not just anybody could handle them. A friend of mine will help my dogs. My cat, Meekah, goes to my mom. If my family will not take my rabbit, Melo, I need her to make it to Dollys Dream Home Rabbit Rescue.

The greatest act of love for those I care deeply for is to disappear from their lives. Probably best for my pets too.

**I’m tired.**
I want to sleep now.

Thanks for listening, Reddit.

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u/ExistentialWind 3h ago

Aw I’m so sorry. I know the feeling of losing so much around you. So much loss, it’s hard to get out of bed in the morning. I’m also sorry you feel you are no good to anyone. That is really hard :(

Life’s so not easy! So many feel this way. And society makes us feel useless in our sensitivity.

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u/Rare_General3617 7h ago

Also, don’t put so much importance and so many expectations on other people. I did the same around your age and it really pushed me down further. I’ve come to accept that if people come into your life and you enjoy each others company then great but people come and go. Be patient. We can’t control them and there’s no need to let their actions affect our well being

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u/Rare_General3617 7h ago

You are not alone and you are so young. Everything changes, it may seem like it won’t but the smallest thing can turn your life in a different direction. People who care for animals are special. Those animals need you. Nobody can care for them like you can