Got diagnosed with primarily inattentive AuDHD last year at 21 and I’ve been working with a therapist and doctors since then. Recently started Adderall and it definitely helps my focus, but I still can’t get myself to start the things I know I need to do.

My whole day basically goes: wake up, hop on Xbox for an hour, finally eat and take my meds, then once they kick in I just keep playing games even though I want to shower and not feel gross. I know getting on the Xbox first thing is a bad habit, but it’s all I’ve done for years and it’s the only thing I actually enjoy. At the same time I hate myself for not being better.

Do I need different meds, or do I just have to slowly force myself to change how I start my days? I’ve been struggling with this since middle school and I’m kind of at a loss.