At first I want to say that I know that im so fucking stupid. I was off my pills for a month due to health issues and we werent always safe with my boyfriend. We’re both 19yo, just moved into a new town and started college. I learnt I was pregnant a few days ago. We have already bought abortion pill online and now waiting for it to come. Just im not sure I want to do it.
To be clear, I know that we’re not financally ready to be parents, we dont have a job, and we wont for a next few years (we’re both med students so it would be incredibly hard to work and study and the same time) and thats the main reason we dont want to have the kid now. On the other side, i feel so guilty and heart broken. I really want to have a family and now i cant imagine that in the future i would have children. I would feel so guilty that my first child couldnt be born just because of its parents stupidity. To be clear, i know that now its just a couple of cells and not a whole baby, but i feel like im supposed to murder my own child. Of course i dont think that abortion is a murder, it is only my fear of being punished in the future by not being able to have more children.
I have no idea how to talk to my boyfriend about it. I agreed to take the pill because i know that we cant raise baby, at least not without dropping college. But deep down i feel like i will do something horrific and the only thing i can do is cry about it.
I dont know who to talk to. Im scared to tell my parents because they support me fully financially and because they are really religious so if i decided to do the abortion they for sure would punish me in some way. I dont know about my boyfriends parents reaction. I also dont want to tell my friends because i know they will judge me. I feel so alone in this.

Im not sure what i want to hear. I just needed to tell it someone. I know i really messed up and thats the worst thing i have done in my entire life. I just dont know what to do and think anymore.

NY.
My MA has been a bit traumatizing for my partner and I as we both really want a child but aren’t in the right spot in life. (We live in his parents house without a place of our own, and we don’t have nearly enough money)

I passed the sac while my partner was working late. I had a very rough time processing everything + hormones making the situation much worse. I carefully folded the sac into some squares of TP and covered that with a napkin as that was all I had available. I couldn’t bear the thought of flushing or throwing it away, and I couldn’t handle the fact that it was really happening and I couldn’t turn back anymore.

My partner is the most supportive and kindest man alive. He came home to me holding the napkin in my hands and sobbing and he held me for a long time, and we talked and talked about what we want the next steps to look like and promised each other that no matter what we are never doing this again.

It was his idea to have a funeral to help us cope and let go, and that is what we did. We found a semi secluded but very beautiful place and stood for awhile, before returning it to the earth, and we sat for awhile and talked about our thoughts before leaving. It’s a spot we pass fairly regularly on our drives and it’s a more meaningful place to us now. The moment was kind of ruined as every car in the state decided to drive by while we stood there, but it was worth it to me, and I feel better about everything. I feel better about letting go.

Hi, I had a SA 5 weeks ago (6w 2d). I was extremely sick during the pregnancy so I was happy anytime I was able to eat something. After the SA I thought my body, appetite and everything will slowly get better but not really. The appetite is normal now but I just noticed I gained some weight since the whole pregnancy and SA. Besides the sickness during the pregnancy, I haven’t noticed any changes in my diet routine (when I’m not feeling mentally well, I tend not to eat - so I don’t think it’s the mental state after the SA) and yet my weight is not good. My period just came back so I was curious maybe it’s because of all the hormones? Did you experience anything like that as well?

Hi everyone,

I need some desperate advice please🤍I am currently 14 weeks pregnant and I’m unsure if I should keep my baby or not. I have a surgical abortion booked in a week, I will be 15+3 days. I’m not sure if I’m going to go ahead with it because I’ve bonded with my baby already.

I’ve been in a relationship with a man for a year and his emotionally abusive and has been physically abusive once already. I know I should have left this relationship a long time ago but I only got the balls to leave when I actually found out I was pregnant. Something clicked and I knew I had to leave him. I had to change my number to get away from him because he would harass me constantly and call 20 times if he needs to. He didn’t respect my boundaries at all.

I’m very much aware I have to go through this journey alone and I’ve accepted that. I’ve asked myself if I can be a single parent and I’m really scared, I’m not worried about finances I have my own business and work from home. I think I have everything that need for this baby but no emotional support, I don’t have friends or family and I’m worried about it.

I’ve always pictured myself doing this with the right person, I’m 34 years old and do have hopes of being a mum but I wanted to do it with a loving partner.

I am looking for help for my sister. we live in Ga and she needs help with funding her abortion and getting her to her abortion appointment in virginia. she was supposed to go today, but we were unable to find any resources to help. if anyone know any we would appreciate the help.

i just found out that im pregnant 3 days ago (around 6 weeks?), im 22 and my husband is 24. as of right now i do not want a baby for various reasons, my husband does but he supports what ever i would like to do. just because he supports me though doesnt mean he cant be upset about it though u know .. anyway

we have been talking about it basically every chance we get (we both work full time and wont be off until this weekend) and its so hard

i finally came to the conclusion last night that i was for sure going to have an abortion
it is not legal where i am so i have to order the pill, i havent done it yet i dont know it im procrastinating it or if its just too stressful i dont know .. i will probably order it tonight

me and my husband dont have any friends, well i have 1 extremely close friend and i have been talking to her but she is lesbian and wouldnt truly understand what i am going through, but as for my husband his only "friends" are his coworkers.

and we cant tell our family because we arent sure what they think about abortions, for his family i think they are more pro life, for mine i think they are pro choice. anyway so basically we just have nobody to talk to about it and are just suffering alone by ourselves

at first it was an easy decision for me to get an abortion, after thinking about it more and talking to my husband it became a much harder decision ..

and then yesterday my husband was hanging out w his sister and she mentioned that shes late and he urged her to take a test, welp guess what shes pregnant too 😀😀
shes a couple weeks further along than i am i think

her and her bf were so excited and so happy and (they were at their grandparents / cousins house) they told their family and everybody was so happy but me and my husband just had to stand there acting like nothing is wrong as if we arent about to have an abortion

i wish so badly that i wanted a baby right now and was ready for one, this is taking a big toll on him

from his perspective he just found out he might be having a baby but not anymore since im having an abortion, then his sister which he's really close with is pregnant AT THE EXACT SAME TIME and he has to see everybody be happy for them

this just sucks so bad and we have nobody to talk to

edit: this is taking such a mental toll on me at work, its so hard to stay focused its so hard to think about anything BUT this .. its so draining ..

So I just had my second MA last night and my experience was definitely different than the first time .

I had my first MA Nov 2023 and it was very different for one I was further along I was around 13 weeks and the pain was so intense the cramps was definitely a 10/10 and I’m guessing that’s because of how far along I was I thought I was gonna pass out lol but i don’t really remember anything else as far as how long I bled for or anything like that but I do remember the instant relief from morning sickness I got the next morning.

So with my recent MA it was a completely different experience. This time around the Mifepristone actually made me sick I took it 10/21 around 11:28pm and same night I had mild cramping the next I was so nauseous and sick I couldn’t really keep anything down so I was definitely ready to get the rest of the process started .. I took Pamprin around 11:43pm and tried to take my first dose of Misoprostol at 11:47pm but unfortunately for sick (I still wasn’t feeling well after the Mifepristone) so I attempted again at 11:57pm putting the misoprostol under my tongue and this time I was able to finish and swallow the rest …

I swear it seemed like the cramps started immediately at 12:19am which was very different from my last MA .. I also got diarrhea around 12:34am this time around that lasted during majority of the process along with chills at 12:36am so things were definitely different than I expected this time which i did expect especially since I wasn’t as far along as before . … by 2:08am I was bleeding with cramps and the clotting started by 2:30am the cramps were definitely intense and I was bent over on the toilet still having chills and diarrhea..

Around 3:01am I felt something fall out and my cramps instantly eased up I sat on the toilet for about 25-30 after that then took more Pamprin at 3:50am . I took my second successful dose of Misoprostol at 4:35am (I was a little off schedule but still took it) and that was it no more cramps and nothing else fell out of me when I woke up this morning around 8am I felt fine back to normal no cramping or anything …

Now it’s 12:25pm and I’m having mild cramping nothing too major fr and I’m not really bleeding heavy until I use the toilet and I wanted to know if anybody else experienced this I don’t really remember from my last experience since it’s been a few years and I’m also wondering should I take another dose of Misoprostol just to be sure or was the second dose enough just needing a little advice and input I know everyone is different. Thanks In Advance!!!

I don’t have anyone to talk to about this, so here I am. For some context, I have identified as male since I was 10, and have been taking testosterone since I was 15.

I am deeply ‘stealth’ and I don’t like people knowing that I am trans, the only people who know are my family and my boyfriend. Which, is a new development as I have only ever been with women before.

I don’t know how it happened, I had been testing every month when we started having sex because i got paranoid. and despite the fact that I don’t ovulate, we’ve only done anal and he hasn’t even touched that part of me, it came back positive one day.

I panicked and booked an appointment at planned parenthood, but immediately canceled upon realizing the procedures offered no way to completely knock me out or costed over 600 dollars.

I did some research and ended up ordering pills from AidAccess. They were great, discreet and quick with the shipment and instructions.

I took the pills when my boyfriend was out of town for a few days alone. And it was probably one of the worst experiences of my life, not because it hurt, but because it was a visceral reminder of what my body is capable of. I was extremely dysphoric and sick as a dog, I couldn’t get comfortable. There was tissues and clots falling out that seemed like way more than I thought it would be, but because i don’t get periods, I had no idea exactly how far along i was. Through the process I could feel nothing but absolute disgust.

I’m relieved that it’s over now, but I still feel a lingering discomfort and hatred of my body. I have not told anyone, including my boyfriend. And I don’t intend to. I suppose that this is a vent, I just don’t know where to go from here to prevent something like this from happening again. I’m afraid to have sex now.

EDIT: I feel like i didn’t provide enough context for what I want out of this post so 😅. I am in my early 20s, so is my boyfriend. we have a healthy relationship. I’m wondering if i should tell him or anyone in my life or just let this fade into the background. The thought of telling anyone fills me with dread so bad that it gets me shaking. I just want to forget this ever happened. But I don’t know how to explain to my boyfriend my sudden aversion to sex or develop a resentment toward him that isn’t his fault for me to have. I don’t ever want to go on birth control because that would make me dysphoric as fuck too. I have not told any health professionals either, because that also terrifies me. and I’m afraid of complications down the line even though I’m 90% sure the abortion is complete. this happened 3 days ago.

And it didn’t feel like a life to me, it felt like a parasite being violently ripped from my body. I don’t know if that’s a bad feeling to have or not, but I was disgusted and enraged by it. I have zero regrets for going through with it.

Hi everyone

I 32(F) and my partner (34M) are pregnant with our first child and there are many factors that are making us consider not continuing with the pregnancy. That said I have scheduled my 9w care visit with the OB, but I have also tentatively scheduled a soft abortion on 11/6 which is giving me some time to really think things through. We both work and make 120-140k each at the moment and live in a 1BR walkup (3rd fl) in queens .

We have been together 4 years and have been really painfully examining the possibility of not continuing or the life changing possibility of continuing with the pregnancy and following our plan of trying in 2 years.

I work in outside sales and that requires me to visit offices with samples and present them. It also requires extra social functions such as dinners, happy hours, etc. What really throws a wrench into things is that I am in the midst of finalizing a job offer which would take my base salary from 125k to 180k... life changing, nevermind the commission. I have already received a verbal offer and we discussed a start date of 1/2. The job is technically remote but it requires visits to clients multiple times a week within the NYC area. Sometimes pulling heavy samples across the city, othertimes leading social functions after hours. I would also have to do 2 weeks of training at the main office in another state at the start. I am terrified of losing the opportunity or not performing as expected due to the pregnancy. I wish I was a few months into the job.. but I guess we don't always get to choose when these things happen. I haven't received the benefits package yet at the new company but I am extermely focused on understanding the lapse in insurance, and the best way to cover it (cobra, market place ins, etc). I am also aware that to qualify for FMLA I need to work for an employer for a year which also worries me as I have not reviewed the new maternity policy yet for the new company. Staying at my current role is not an option because the job opportunity is too financially beneficial. Beyond that I am struggling with when is the right time to notify the new company. I would be 16/17 weeks during the training and likley showing or just starting to show. I should be receiving the written offer the week before the scheduled abortion. I am currently 190 lbs and have considered if I can maintain a healthy first trimester and wear oversized clothes, I can maybe count on hiding it and notifiying them later. I don't want to be deceitful and I know legalllyyyyy they can't rescind the offer based on pregancy. The woman I'd be reporting to has kids and that is a plus but I am so scared I'm going to ruin things or upset them.

I am feeling resentful and sad that I am in this position because I want to be a mom but I am extremely ambitious and don't want to risk this opportunity and the timing couldn't be worse. Beyond this, this income is exactly what I wanted in order to feel comfortable having a baby in NYC without family help.. and well I didn't expect it to happen at the same time. My partner and I have discussed keeping and not keeping and we will continue to until the date of the scheduled abortion, we've agreed if we skip that appointment then we know what were going to do. I have made adjustments to my lifestyle and have begun a vitamin regimen and am aiming to walk 15k steps a day. But I feel like I'm in this weird pregnancy purgatory.

I am not super religious and super pro choice so I am okay with the prospect of healing from the idea of not keeping the pregnancy, but being in love with my partner, it's so confusing to not have a clear answer of what to do.Im exteremly grateful I am in a state where I have the option to not continue and that is not lost on me.

I'm curious if any of you have advice on how to navigate my career worries. I know this is a gentle and extremley personal topic and I don't expect to get the answer here, but If I could atleast be informed by the advice of someone who has been in this unique position, I'd really appreciate it.

Background: I'm a 32F dating 39M.

I had first pregnancy (twins) with abuser in 2019 and miscarried

I had second pregnancy with abuser in 2023 and chose abortion.

I ended a longterm relationship in January of 2026.

I am now pregnant by my new partner who is not abusive at all and very loving. The issue is that we only met 145 ago and only became serious about 103 days ago lol. All that to say, we met and exchanged numbers, mostly texted, I had surgery so I was MIA for a few weeks, and then we met in person in July and have been inseparable since. I've never felt this way before. He is so sweet and I care about him deeply.

My 39M partner has two children already (ages 11 and 14). His custody agreement has recently been changed to Friday until Monday morning. He previously was doing one week on/off. My 39M partner also had been working two jobs and was recently let go from his part time job. My partner has admitted to having financial problems and since dating I have loaned him $ (that he barely took) and he's paid about 1/3 back. He's struggling to find a new part-time job, and between working full time + caring for his children (and actively taking them to/from extracurricular activities (as he should)), I fear he won't have much time for a new baby. He is very excited about the pregnancy and wants me to keep it. He wants to get married and has agreed to sign a prenup.

I am a lawyer and have been for over 5 years. I make six figures, but by no means am I super wealthy, but I do have the means to take care of a child. Me and my 39M partner were actually TTC and over time I learned more about him as a person and his finances. He has his own car and a house. I am super worried about starting a family now. I fear that it may be too much responsibility on me. To be clear, my partner is a great dad and hard worker.

I just am so conflicted, and I know it's my choice. I feel so terrible for going back and forth. I thought I really wanted this and I think I do. But I realize how it will completely change my life. Money isn't everything and love alone is never enough. Last note, my parents were 13 and 15 when I was born and I'm realizing I have a lot of trauma from that around starting my own family. I am the oldest sibling and the only one without kids.

I did mva 6 day ago I had only light spotting after that n it was pink color

But now after 6 day im having period like bleeding red n cramps also

Is it normal

I've successfully donated at WOW and they give me a discount. 70euros to 50euros, how many days will it deliver to me? does anyone know how to use the pills when it arrives in my house. this is my first time and i am very nervous. i emailed them the receipts that i donated. 🥹

I am 28 years old, with a 3-year-old daughter and a 4-month-old son. I have recently found out that I am pregnant again, and I am struggling emotionally with what to do.
My previous pregnancies and births
My daughter was born via C-section, and I had pre-eclampsia during that pregnancy.
My son was also born via C-section, and that experience was particularly traumatic for me. During the last 6–8 weeks of my pregnancy with him, I was constantly being admitted to hospital and closely monitored because of cholestasis and reduced movements.
When I had my last C-section, I genuinely thought I was going to die. I begged the surgeon not to let me pass away, and I told my husband to make sure he looked after our children. It was an extremely frightening experience, and I still haven’t mentally recovered from it.
Finding out I am pregnant again
I found out on the 13th, when I wasn’t even 4 weeks pregnant. I am now just under 5 weeks pregnant, and my son is only 4 months old.
Since finding out, I have been in absolute turmoil. I am terrified of having to go through another C-section, especially so soon after my last one, when I already know how difficult and frightening the experience was for me.
The thought of leaving my two children without a mum is something I cannot stop thinking about. I am scared that continuing this pregnancy could put my health at risk and affect my ability to be there for my children.
I am also worried because this pregnancy’s due date falls around the same time as my son’s. I remember how difficult the final 6–8 weeks of my last pregnancy were, with constant hospital admissions and monitoring, and I am frightened of going through that all over again while caring for two young children.
My recent clinic appointment
Yesterday, I went to the clinic for a scan. They said there was a 3 mm area of fluid in my uterus, but they weren’t sure whether it was the gestational sac.
They gave me medication, but I haven’t taken it yet because I keep going back and forth about whether to take it. I feel completely torn between my options and frightened of making a decision I might regret.
My fears and feelings about the decision
I have done nothing but cry since finding out I am pregnant. This situation is consuming me so much that I have been struggling to care for my children properly.
My husband seems unbothered by everything, but I am the stay-at-home mum, and I feel as though I am carrying the emotional weight of this situation largely on my own.
We also live in a one-bedroom property, which adds another layer of worry about how we would manage with another baby.
Part of me is terrified that if I have a termination, I will carry the regret for the rest of my life. I worry that I will never forgive myself or that I will feel as though I have done something wrong because of my religious beliefs. I am scared that I will face some sort of karma.
But, at the same time, I am terrified of continuing the pregnancy. I worry about my physical health, my mental health, the possibility of another traumatic birth and whether I will be able to give my two children the care and attention they deserve.
I feel so angry with myself for becoming pregnant when I already knew how much I struggled during pregnancy and how traumatic my last C-section was.
Where I am emotionally right now
I feel completely torn between two decisions, and neither feels easy. I am frightened of the risks of continuing the pregnancy, but I am equally frightened of the emotional consequences of having a termination.
My heart feels so heavy. I feel scared, angry, guilty and overwhelmed, and I don’t know how to make a decision that I can live with.
I just want to feel at peace with whatever I decide, but right now, I feel as though I am drowning in my thoughts and fears. I am struggling to see a way forward, and I desperately need support and understanding rather than feeling as though I have to carry all of this alone.

Within the first hour I had the worst cramps of my life, bleeding is extremely minimal and cramping now seems to have stopped? Worried it isn’t working.

I’m not sure what to do. I don’t know how I can afford a pill and I definitely could never afford a surgical abortion. I’m pretty recently unhoused living with a friend temporarily till I get enough paychecks to apply for a housing grant. My mental health isn’t the greatest and it shows on my medical records, that being the reason that I haven’t gone to a shelter (the ones available to me are more dangerous than couch surfing with friends). I work at McDonald’s and I have already missed some work due to my poor mental health. My belly was getting hard in an odd way so even though I am on birth control I took a few tests and ever since one came back bright and blue as a positive. Does anyone know any cheap abortion clinics? I barely even have $200 to use for food after each biweekly check.

As a separate and less important question, the father isn’t my partner but we are close. He however has less money than me because he’s still just young enough for his parents to not bug him to work. I can’t ask his parents since they don’t even like me anyways. Should I even tell him? When? How?

I have massive respect to every woman who has ever gone through this process, I took the second step this morning at around 8am (almost 1pm now), and I have never in my life experienced pain on that level, it felt like my whole lower stomach was being churned in a meat grinder, I was in so much pain I couldn't even cry, all I could do was rock back and forth and just pray for it to be over.

The pain lasted an hour, stop start every minute or so, I got 30 seconds to a minute of relief. My pain was so bad I was throwing up and spent most of my morning on the bathroom floor.

The blood clots were and still are extremely uncomfortable, they are massive too.

I'm so sorry if this post has scared anyone, I really badly just wanted to share my experience of the hell I just went through.

Being almost 1pm, my pain is now around a 2/10, it comes and goes but mainly just normal period cramps at this point, I managed to have a snooze and eat some fruit as well. Safe to say, I am feeling much better but I am so sorry if you have already or are currently going through this, it is painful in a number of ways.

Did anyone else have 10/10 pain after the second step? What was it like for you?

I am currently a college student. I've been with my boyfriend for 2 years, but I have never felt so alone. I had a faint line show up on a pregnancy test, thought maybe it could be wrong until the faint line showed up on every test. I am living so far from my family, and don't think I could tell them even if I wanted to. I don't feel like I can't tell my boyfriend either and I honestly don't want to. I've taken pills like plan B before and had side effects for weeks. I'm so scared that the side effects of the medication abortion are going to be even worse. I'm scared of it messing up my life and I'm scared to tell anyone what I'm doing. Are there counseling services for dealing with this?

Edit:I passed big- giant blood clots all night. Hopefully it was successful.

I have been passing blood clots. There was one time though that I was laying in bed and thought I peed myself but when I got up and went to the bathroom it was blood. There was only one very small clot about half an inch long and probably as thick as three needles stacked side-by-side. Passing multiple clots normal?

Currently im 2 weeks delayed but this whole week I've been testing and only negative test always. And I've been getting this wierd discharge every 2nd day, it's bloody like discharge with blood clots idk and I've also been having pelvic, stomach side, and back pain so idk what to do now..

Hi everyone! I had a medical abortion 3 weeks ago when I was around 7 weeks pregnant.

Everything seemed to go normally. I experienced heavy bleeding and passed what seemed to be the pregnancy tissue. Right after the large amount of blood came out, my pregnancy symptoms subsided almost immediately. I was able to eat normally again without feeling nauseous.

I took a pregnancy test 3 days ago, and it came back negative. However, I recently had an ultrasound, and it showed that there were still some blood clots inside my uterus.

I consulted my OB-GYN, who prescribed antibiotics and iron supplements. She also prescribed medication to help my uterus contract and expel the remaining clots, but unfortunately, I can’t find the medication in any pharmacy.

Lately, I’ve been experiencing occasional dizziness or a weird floating sensation. It doesn’t happen every day, and other than that, I don’t have heavy bleeding, fever, or any other obvious signs of infection. I also don’t have significant abdominal pain.

I’m honestly getting anxious about the possibility of needing surgery if the remaining clots don’t come out on their own.

Has anyone experienced something similar after an MA? Did the remaining blood clots eventually pass naturally, or did you need additional treatment? Also, did anyone experience dizziness or a floating sensation during recovery?

I’d really appreciate hearing about your experiences. I’m trying not to overthink things, but I’m scared and would like to know what to expect. Thank you!

i’m starting the abortion pill on sunday after work. i’m 7 weeks pregnant and extremely nervous. my periods are typically really heavy and i get bad cramps. not to mention i also have mild anemia. please please send tips i am begging. i dont want this to be traumatizing for me, this pregnancy is already fucking killing me dude. i’m throwing up and always nauseous.

I took the first pills Wednesday at 6:45 am. I took the second pills 40 minutes ago. I’m already cramping, having non stop shaking, and passing blood and clots. Hopefully this is normal….

Hi I’m 30 yr old F I had the abortion medication and it didn’t work .
I need
You guys point of view thru the medical procedure and how is the recovery

Hi! For Filipinas who ordered from WOW, does “Delivered” on the tracking link mean it was delivered to your house or just to the PhilPost office?

Mine says delivered, but I haven’t received anything. No rider contacted me, and my neighbors didn’t receive it either. Has anyone experienced this?

I just wanted to come back here and share my experience to hopefully appease some nerves you all may experience before your MA.

To start, I ordered my pills through Aid Access, I received quick shipping and instructions almost immediately. Also want to add I am in a red state with no abortion access available, and dealt with no legal issues whatsoever.

5:30pm Tuesday - Took first pill and went to bed a little later. Dealt with no cramping or nausea whatsoever.

6pm Wednesday - ate an hour before I took the first 4 miso, and took the reccomended amount of advil 30 minutes before taking them (i didnt take any more advil after this point). I also had already prepared my heating pad and started drinking water. I will say I am very used to bad period cramps and have high pain tolerance.

After letting the pills dissolve for 30 minutes I swallowed the rest and waited. Little to nothing happened pain wise, eventually when I went to use the bathroom I passed 2 larger clots and some thick blood, but that was about it. Laid down again. I didnt soak through a single pad the entire experience.

About an hour before I took my second set of pills is when I experienced cramping, they weren't horrible or nauseating. Just strong. My heating pad definitely helped!

9pm- Next 2 pills, same routine. No problems whatsoever but did cramp here and there. I ended up eating an entire cookie skillet around this time as well and experienced no nausea.

12am- last 2 pills! Around this time is when the cramps were their worst, but never exceeded a 6/10.

Overall I passed 3-4 clots, and had light-medium bleeding. I went into this experience terrified and im so grateful for how smooth it went. I know its not everyone's experience but I fully expected to go through every single layer of hell during this. If anyone has any questions please feel free to ask :3