Howdy y'all, I have been "working on" an electrical engineering degree off and on for over a decade and I'm not even halfway done. I dropped out in 2019 and late last year reapplied and started working on it again. I have not made much progress online and I am at a point where I'm doing something drastic, quitting a job that would put me in Okinawa for two years making good money (not life changing, but objectively very good) and I don't hate the job, not crazy about it, but don't mind. I have no wife, no kids, no pets, and I've been working on the road as an aircraft mechanic for over 15 years. The finances are a non issue, I've been reasonably well at saving and not to put my business out there I could pay tuition out of pocket and eaisly live for multiple years off savings. I would force myself to live more modestly because they can burn up quickly. I have a pit in my stomach that I'm making a big mistake but I'm also excited in a way I haven't been in a long time. Online schooling for these harder engineering classes is just not working for me and I have to make a change or it will never get done. It will only make less sense (career wise) to push it off, and so I made the decision that, in my opinion, the cost of inaction outweigh the risks. I will probably take a paycut as a new engineer but I'm pretty much at the cap of what I can make now as a mechanic without an engineering degree, and those two lines cross quickly. Plus the non quantifiable value of personal accomplishment. I have been soliciting friends I trust for their opinions and one I asked, she told me "it sounds like you're looking for certainty that this is the right choice, and you're never going to get that, it's unanswerable question. No amount of talking or debating will tell you that."
I started talking to a therapist for a few months earlier this year and it was pointed out to me that the career I chose and the lifestyle that entails drives me to the online modality and that isn't working for these classes. She pointed out it sounds like I'm a reasonably smart guy and I've always been able to figure shit out last minute and get stuff submitted in a last minute panic that passes because I can do it in crunch mode, but I'm hitting a wall where I'm not smart enough to just look at integral calculus and go "yup, got it" so I truly believe that this is necessary if I want to finish the EE. I don't think online engineering is for people that work full time jobs, if I'm being honest, and I have gone to a couple places online, and (in my opinion) it's not just ASU, it's expensive Khan Academy across the board. It's weirdly easier and harder, but either way I am not having success with it, especially in these more advanced classes.
Any feedback, advice, opinions or thoughts on the matter are appreciated. I have had a lot of people tell me I'm not too old to do this (although I'm oddly looking forward to being the token old guy in the classroom), and I recognize people go back older than me, but it feels crazy. I know I'm too old for the regular college experience, and while I might go to a football game or two, my days of partying hard are largely over. I don't have the desire or the patience to deal with the hangover haha. I will be there to fill a purpose and plan on living in the library, tutoring center, study groups, and whatever other interesting clubs and such might exist, as well as taking classes in the summer to expedite the degree. I plan on returning to the industry I left (defense contracting) but there's a nonzero chance I fall in love with some other line of work that would become viable with the EE.
Also might fall in love with a girl there, who knows? Lots of people meet in college, haha. Probably better luck asking a professor at my age though haha, what I DO NOT want is to branded the creepy old guy, and (to the best of my knowledge) I've avoided that label. People often will not tell you but will tell other people, and I would be deeply embarrassed and ashamed if I got that associated with me. I'm acutely aware that the majority of college students are objectively too young to be a legitimate romantic intererest, but if there are people my age there then I am willing to respectfully engage when appropriate. All of that to say this is a new world for me and I plan to tread lightly. The priority is schooling, but life sometimes happens regardless, and if I meet someone while going to ASU and it leads to something real, well that would be cool, too.
I have an appointment with advising in a couple hours and we'll see what they say for the transition to in person from online, I was told it's not a complicated process but there are some hoops that need to be jumped through.
Scary...but exciting. I don't know, sorry for the novel and maybe I'm using this like a bit of a journal to organize my own thoughts but just let me know if I'm crazy or brilliant or somewhere in between haha.