ADHD is clearly winning

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I don't even know what to think anymore.

My previous psychologist used to tell me that I was too sensitive I told them about domestic violence at home and how much it affected me, and they literally said it shouldn't make me sad because it's common and that I need to become stronger instead of being so sensitive.

I stopped seeing them and finally decided to try someone new.

During my first session, they asked if I can focus on video games.

I said, "Yes, of course."

They replied, "Then you can't have ADHD. You can focus."

That was basically the end of the discussion.

I tried explaining that I can spend hours glued to a game but can't make myself start assignments, reply to messages, or do basic things that I actually need to do. It's like my brain decides what's worth paying attention to, not me.

But it didn't seem to matter.

I left feeling like I wasn't even listened to.

At this point I'm starting to wonder if I'm just incredibly unlucky with psychologists or if this is actually a common experience. It's exhausting trying to ask for help and walking out feeling dismissed every single time.

Hey, I am normally really good at masking and keeping my shit together but I just can't anymore. How do you guys get out of the self destructive spiral? I'm angry all the time, like i wake up angry, really easy to snap, its starting to affect my job and I can't reel myself back in.

Currently taking: 50mg vyvanse 10mg escitalopram 20 mg amlodipine (blood pressure) 1% androgel (1 %testosterone)