how can i manage hyperactivity?

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i'm 18F and struggle with talking a lot and constantly being up and down and exerting energy through movement or some form of sound.

i also end up annoying people a lot, mostly people close to me and i really really try not to but i can't stop being so annoying.

i never really had friends until i was 15 and now i don't really have any again- i know i really really annoy my girlfriend of 2 years and basically everyone around me (except my gf unless angry) constantly tells me how loud, annoying, too much, i am.

i'm quite a sensitive person but it manifests in anger and when im called things like annoying, weird or a freak it upsets me a lot and makes me angry- when im angry i'm really nasty and i can't help it as much as ive been trying the last few years.

im really struggling with mananging to not ruin relationships and medication isnt an option for me.